Lang Tengah 八人行

hello people. ya it's the long drafted post by me on our epic trip of the year. and I name the trip 'Lang Tengah 八人行' =D 

date of the epic trip : 9/7 to 13/7 2012 

introducing the mighty eight that went to the trip:  

me! =D  

the s4 guys, Low Yeong Yih!! forever the source of endless-stomach-hurting-loud-hysterical laughters. seriously. forever. Ricky Lee. happy to know you! though i cant really keep up with the cantonese jokes@@ Ze Khan. the second trip i went with you eh? our 大白鲨，how i wishhh i can exchange skin colour with you. lol. you wish so too right? ahaha.. and the three of them forms the three musketeers, or the three blind mice, or three-forever-crapping-cracking-jokes-vulgar-speaking-happy-go-lucky-future-'wipeout malaysia'-commenting guys in the trip. con-sure (confirm sure) =D 

and next we have another trio, the frisbee players, Lim Yao Jie ( gei lou. sigh. I thought I did knew you after so long) . Khor Hock Eu. ( the walking encyclopedia. and sei 汉奸. shit head! =( ）and the ORGANIZER of said trip, the one who make it all possible, Yap Jian Shen. 谢谢你 =D Two of them are future doctors and js's gonna be my junior this coming semester. mwahaha..  

finally the last member of this voyage is the only other female in the group, Soh Ning Xin. sista for years. first friend i've known in high school. and our name even sounds the same. being the only two girls in the trip, we can only 相依为命，

okay, done with the introduction of characters. now, the trip. THE trip, of the year. and the first ever trip with the zoo gang. after knowing you all for so so long, finally, we went for a real trip. =D 

Lang Tengah is an island, at Terengganu, if you're wondering. it's neighbor to the infamous Redang Island and Pulau Perhentian. two years ago i've been to Pulau redang on a trip with the pmo girls and few of the same guys in this trip. so, naturally, its normal for us to compare the trip with each other.  

Redang VS Lang Tengah. 

sand. 

Redang wins. too many dead corals at Lang Tengah. I remembered that the sand in Redang is almost pure white. 

sea.

it's the same. crystal clear. pure blue. BEAUTIFUL. BUT, Lang Tengah seemed to have an excess numbers of sea cucumbers at the shallow seas, for I dunno what reason? T.T I can't even have a peaceful swim at the sea shore!! for the fear of accidentally stepping on the abundant sea cucumbers lying EVERY-FREAKING-WHERE on the sea beds AND also because the guys are throwing sea-cucumber-grenades at me. urghhh. the FAT-STICKY-BONELESS-UGLY-HEAVY-WATER-SPITTING-FREAKING-FACELESS CREATURE! and for that reason, I don't like being in the sea for long. the sea is just fine being beautiful backgrounds in the photos.  

boat.

I remember hopping to Redang was fun. the boat to lang tengah doesn't hop. but I dislike both, still. sea sick. urghhh. UNTIL NOW MY HEAD STILL FAO HA FAO HA!! and the slanted canteen does not help with my giddiness at all. sigh.  

bus. 

we took the sani express. business class. of course the last time was better, where we rent our own bus sekolah. but its still considerably more comfortable compared to transnational busses. and eight freaking hours is too much. the next time, I would really opt for flying instead. 

rocks. 

hah! Lang Tengah wins this one. there's this jungle trek that leads to the cliffs and rocky areas by the sea where the scene is awesome. we didn't expect jungle trekking on an island would be jungle-ish much and so we wore slippers to trek instead. thx god it wasn't too tough and there's no leeches. there's quite a number of over large lizards though. urgh. and things get slightly excited when two of the guys went missing all of the sudden and we start coming up with all sort of theories of their mysteries disappearance =D however, I wished I were more daring to climb even more rocks but it's rather scary also not to mention dangerous. 

photos.

there's some regrets on this aspect, but considering the fact that it's a guy-dominant group this time, guessed that it can't be helped. and also there's no real photographers or photography lovers with us this time. so the number of photos taken is also lesser by a few folds. we had 2000 over photos in the last trip. and in this one, with only one dslr we have a little less than 700 with mostly continuous shots and sceneries and candids. also ya, kinda lack group photos this time. 

the trip. 

now, this is not something that can be compared easily. I'll just say its different from last time. DIFFERENT. though the package and the islands are rather similar. let's see. this trip, it's more of enjoy-the-scenery than photo-shooting, more along-the-beach-explorinjg than photo-posing, more sea-creatures-catching than beach-sports-playing, more guys-version-yumcha-keng-gai than girls-yumcha-keng-gai, on the island, we have love-you-you-jetty instead of mo mo cha, plus we have more star-gazing-and-wishing-upon-three-or-four-shooting-stars than finding-蓝眼泪 =D

ok. enough of the introduction. time to let the pictures do the rest of the talking =p

this 10 month old baby is the happiest baby in the world . he laughs and smile at ANYONE and EVERYTHING and EVERY TIME. lyy said he would the easiest baby to be kidnapped @@

awwww <3

we have our own ladies camwhore session at the jetty to make up for the loss =p

sunshine and pretty girls =p

ehehehe nice jump shot =D

 these are the activities we had while strolling along the beach

js throwing pebble ( dead choral) as far as he can

throwing frisbee though the beach had too many dead chorals for them to play a proper game

阳光。沙滩。青春 <3

one of the very rare group pictures. we left a space for lyy the photographer =D

ladies hiding from the scorching sun.

sista <3

this is what friends are for <3

the new pets!!

sh kang - ze khan

so ki - ricky

playing sand

playing sand

also playing with the sand =p

sorta sunset. our location only allowed us to watch the sunset.

sunset and the road ahead <3

 the next morning we have rock climbing!! sorta.

ze khan got stuck!! just for show =p

on the cliff by the sea.

nice rocky areas right?? but one fall could be deadly.

the areas conquered by the almighty js and hock eu

nice scene. 

 in the afternoon, some of the guys decided to try out sea diving =D

lim yao jie jumping from the top of the boat roof!!

mid air =D

one of the best shots by js

hock eu took up the challenge too

in the evening, we went for a swim in the sea =D

鸳鸯戏水

终极海参。and the rest of the sea bed is infested by this creature's brothers and sisters too. ew ew ew ew.

clear sea, but rocky sea bed infested with sea cucumbers.

hiding under the shade when i could no longer stand the sea cucumbers.

one of our epic best pictures!! nice pose, ze khan =D

and the rest of the candid shots by the beach

no idea what they were doing by nice pose =D

cool hock eu =D

ze khan, frisbee, and sunset =D

ning <3

on our last night, we have our epic star gazing session =D

we...snuck out the bed sheets, chose the most pitch black beach, lay down nicely, and wait for the appearance of the shooting stars =D the starry sky itself is way beyond awesome. i could never had witnessed such a scene at home as we're often blinded by the city night lights. and its my very first time watching the appearance of a shooting star. though often confused by the bat that flew overhead of us, i had seen four shooting stars that night. one which i've secretly kept to myself. and the make-a-wish-upon-a-shining-star, though its sorta a childish and fairytale-like act, its still beautiful, too =D

八个人，排排躺。

peaceful, rather boring, but still a beautiful session =D

ricky, ning, and me. sadly, the darkest leg belongs to me. lol.

out of no where, the guys started to play shu mo O.O

all of them trying to bring lyy down!

look at them boys. ahahahaa

proof of our crime: keeping the bed sheets after we blatantly used them to lay on the sand. the resort staff would be really mad if they've found out =p

 finally, our best, precious, very few, complete group photos =D

laugh. brave. joy. love. hopeful. peaceful. happy. confident

free style. ya, lyy got the best pose!

ehehehe, undoubtly the epic trip of the year right?? its a really sweet getaway from the city life we have. cleared my mind on everything and fill my body with positive energies =D chs trip with chs friends. such precious bonds we have, right? 


时隔两年，又更珍惜这一份缘分。四天四夜的重新相处，果然和两年前的我们杀然不同。然而，很高兴大家能从从前一样的基础能找到不同、适合自己、更好的自己。咱们都是大好青年，希望休息了以后，能够继续有理想的往前冲，加油加油 =D

shadows <3

feeling a little nostalgic? here's a link to yee min's redang post two years ago. which is a more epic trip? you decide =D http://nimeey.blogspot.com/2010/06/redang.html

til then.

chaoz~

just observe.

It's another slow day. just got back from malacca and I'm still dead tired and contented with food. ahahaha. and ya the fact where I've gotten fatter. oops. new resolution: keep fit! and get better at sports. at least by a little bit. 

here I am. treasuring the moments I get to lay back to just spend time reading and watching drama and tagging photos and blogging. don't interrupt my peace, thank u =D 

holidays. season of gatherings. where I meet my peers and where peers hang out together where the sole reason is only to social. not for other studies or working purposes. so, it's the time where I get to observe how my peers actually carry themselves at the age of 20. and also where I would practise to carry myself. to be myself? good to be comfortable but maybe a little too much. to be really pleasant? still not my thing. to just listen? it's nice. but just sometimes i need to tune out the distractions for me to focus on the topic. and I'm no story teller. quite fail huh. but then, maybe I'm just not meant to be the spot light person, just a sideline observer to the happenings.  

different. every single person is so distinctive and unique and just different. some just the direct opposite, really. some how, the very little similarities we have manage to just bring a group of us together. thoughts. everyone has a different opinion on something. habits. everyone is already used to certain things. speech. everyone has different preferences to put words and to crack jokes. level. everyone has a different level on different things. higher level in certain things, lower in others. 到头来，什么都还是好的一半、坏的一半，不多也不少。 

I have not hold on tight to anything. as I do not know what of others belong to me. I have whatever I already have, but no more than that. when others come to me. I hold on to them, loosely. when you go, I'll just say goodbye. I rather let go than to have the string snapped into two for holding on too tight, like once upon a time. yet again, I know not what it's worth to hold on tight til the very end. maybe when I finally learn, I'll be able to hold on and on and on, as I find worth. maybe. and hopefully.

i apologize for the order of the random topics. its actually random paragraphs i typed with my ipad strung together to form a post. but its kinda a waste not to post them. so. hee.

on another random note, being twenty is awesome =D

til then.

chaoz~

life is a drama

so apparently normal people don't have much thoughts when they watch drama. oh well, I some how feel its a waste not to entirely feel and indulge into a drama when I've already spent so much time following all the episodes not to mention lots of concentration on it. and also, the producer and actors and filming team had spent lots of energy and time and money and effort in it, isn't it? so some how it only feels right if I really pay attention to the drama which I've chosen to watch.  

drama series is a very beautiful thing. you have a beautiful, normal start, then a twist in the story, some ups and downs, and the best part is that you'll always have an ending, to whatever that had happen. 

for us, the twenties, its not the end, yet. sometimes, it just a little frustrating that I don't know what kinda ending lays ahead of me. we work and work and work. yet, we still do not know what, when and how the ending would eventually be. most of the things we do now are for the long run. so, there's sorta no end. and when there's no end or when its too far ahead that i can't see, i may tend to lost momentum on the journey. maybe I shouldn't even believe in endings. maybe it's a fake concept that happens in drama. what we have in real life is journey. that's why the end does not matter. 

watched rooftop prince. it's cute and beautiful. watched the Disney movie, brave. 很多东西可遇不可求。但人也其实能够超越自己。想找一个可以坚信的信念。想每一次都有一个明确的理由。值得付出一切的理由。找理由也可以是一个理由。能为自己找一个又一个的理由，是一件很幸福的事。that's why people say things happen for a reason. so that we can accept the bad ones and make more good ones by finding a reason to do so. and with reasons, we can have momentum to go on, from one mission to the other.  

少了坚信的东西。反而多了许多所谓＂看开了＂、不再相信的概念。we lack control in life, our own life. so we accept and adapt. but to what extend? 一切都看你选择什么、就得放弃什么。怎样才能做到最好的最好。然后，欣然接受一切的一切，才能快乐。 

nothing's better than a life full of positive reasons. 

til then.

chaoz~

peace of mind...NOT!

holidays. you think that I would be more likelier to have a peace of mind finally, right? NOT! so many thoughts have come across my mind the second the holidays have started. of both positive and negative. of both disturbing and mind-soothing. and of both constructive and the-plain-useless-ones. I have a dozen of them but they are so messed up I don't even know how to write about them. 


I have all the free time in the world. for this week, at least.  where I just chill at home and follow the never ending anime and manga and drama series =p here and then, I'll feel so guilty just being a potato couch and have started thinking about random ideas of what to do instead. I've been switching ideas from making udon mee, to baking chicken pies and egg tarts, to sewing dolls, to learning guitar, to reading some very inspirational books, to making a scrapbook, to writing articles, to researching, to exploring new roads, to... I've seriously lost track. and DUH none of which I've really started to work with, because of the fact that being a potato couch for a few days straight is seriously just pure awesome. OOPS?  


and of course eventually even that awesomeness has started to be boring and so I THINK it's finally time to get started with something. hee. ya, I got an idea again. let's see how it goes first. too early to report anything. =p 


anyway. there's just this manga so worth reading that I have completed recently. BAKUMAN. meaning 'manga gambling'. from wikipedia: 'its written by written by Tsugumi Ohba and illustrated by Takeshi Obata, the same creative team responsible for Death Note.' NO WONDER ITS SO FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!! I've forgotten who recommended it to me? hock eu? anyways, its a story of dream chasers, 食梦者. instead of the main stream kinda battle manga, it's more of a psychological, real-life related and erm, motivational manga? in the story, it's about mangakas striving for what they love. the plot of the story goes is also quite realistic, a life story stretching over a 10 year time span, where in the end, all the characters have grown and made their dreams come true. i think the manga really have it thought through for each action and consequence the characters made. very complete. and nice graphic =D 食梦者。 有得就有失。相反的，失的越多，可能得的也越多。life has its ups and downs. the more you bet on it, the more extreme the two ends would be. and that would define how interesting your life would be? this manga has definitely got me thinking.


the other one I've completed in on call 36小时。that, reminds of life and death. death, especially. how little control we will always have. and the fact that we will never know how much time we have left. how much time left we have with our beloved ones. we are far too young, so naturally these thoughts always always escape us when we make our daily decisions. and then also, the guilt when i start to think: what the hell am i still doing with my life as a potato couch despite knowing ALL the above? OOPS. and same as each viewer, I think everybody would have the same line of thought at one point of this drama: what would it be like if I've studied medicine instead? haha. 做医生一点都不简单。I truly salute each and every of my friends who are currently doing medicine. 辛苦了！ 


the other thing I did is looking through old photos. and saving them from the facebook. a glimpse of them made it seemed like my life is damn happening indeed? and it made me realized how much of it which i've forgotten even though its only one year since then. a thousand over photos. most of them were from a levels since I've only created an account after form 5. there's camps, and visits of foster family, and 21st community service, and photos of TTC where i worked, and the-exotic-trip-to-redang, and countless outings and gatherings. 


BUT, I remembered what I felt back then, wasn't as awesome as it seemed from the pictures. SOME of them, anyway. there were times where I don't LIKE being happening. or i just don't like it when happening were being defined by just outings. or fake smiles where I was just trying to make a good photo instead of truly enjoying the moments of the happenings. why so, I wonder? i guess my expectations of happenings was high and anything less than those of chs made me feel not enough? I was indeed weird then, right? 


this is what i think of as the few real happenings of that time instead: ttc interview (epic fail). the first lesson i taught at ttc(forever so satisfying). 21st cs (every second of it, feels awesome to be isolated from the real world for a whole week if you know what i mean). the redang trip (simply pleasant and refreshing). further maths (kinda a self achievement). a particular friend gathering where i cried( if anyone even knew =p). and of course there's more. even if its some short moments during an ordinary day. any how, its still way too minority of the total numbers of days which had passed. funny how the anime and drama make me want to count my days considered as interesting. lol. guess it isn't too late to truly enjoy the moments as much as possible starting from now. at least, uni life isn't bad at all =p 


i know how i always said i hated my a levels life. but now i think its time for me to feel thankful for it. even if it sucks then. after all, its how you take the day as good or bad based on your feelings. and feelings can be tempered with. not that we should edit our feelings, but we could make it as positive as it could be.


trying to summon all the positive thoughts as much as possible. and learning to filter unnecessary words as much as possible. 


gambateh kudasai. 


til then. 


chaoz~

and we just go on

finals OVER!! and that officially marks the end of my first year at uni =D okay, maybe its not official. its until i get all my credit points that its official, u see. but then, its just two weeks time before i officially get them so. haha. ya imma going to my second year in university =D


anyway, i'm liking myself being a july intake uni student. what's the difference, you ask? erm. coz i start in july ma. so basically, each of my year is split into two years, with a loooong summer break between the semesters. some how, this makes one year feels more like two years. as in, i'm already getting all the graduation/holidays/very-long-time-has-passed feeling like its one whole year already but actually only six months have passed.


the thing is, i was feeling so comfortable with my university study lifestyle. the engineering circle of friends. our-forever-nerdy-discussions. and some how i even got used to be hanging around guy dominant gangs ALL the time. and when i start to attend high school gatherings again. i feel..quite..distant. just a little. maybe its because we haven't updated each other for so long. sometimes i just really don't know how to feel comfortable. how much past do you keep in the now? how much presence do you put in your present? and also, maybe i haven't been hanging around with so many girly girl friend groups for far too long. but i was never good with girl groups anyway. switch mode, you'd say? that's just my worst talent. aiks.


yet again. i'm sure i'll pick up the pace with my old friends again after another couple of gatherings. it is just the beginning of the gathering/trip/outing season. sometimes, i just feel that i've totally forgotten about my old self. pure bad memory, really. how was i then back in high school? how did i talk/act then? was i close/not close to you? same goes to my primary school self. just curious.


and. imma one big gonna-be-fat lazy pig-like sheep =.= i was so eager to do all the AWESOME/ MEANINGFUL/ HEALTHY/ CREATIVE/ NEW stuff right after exam. and on the very first day, i woke up about 10 and spammed seven episode of on call 36小时 straight. pure lazy bum. but on my defence, it a really good drama =D


ya so. its mid year. and i'm feeling whole new and fresh again =D just like a restart button. i'm going to my second year in university already. can't help feeling even more pro-adult-uni-student-like. lol. aaaand, hooray to finally meeting old friends!! hooray to not having to put off events with 'next time ba' and 'exam larh' again and again. hooray to finally getting to hear stories of my beloved ones =D aaaand, even though costy, hooray too all the money spending trips and outings we are gonna have. simply because they will all worth every single penny =p


more to my restart button. aware that everything will be,in fact, quite new again next semester? as our gang will be split into all sort of branches and we won't get to hang out together as much. excited. also wondering what sort of people i'll meet from the one-sem-ahead-of-us seniors. ahahaha. and my year two ECSE subjects. next semester i'm having digital, circuits control, advanced maths, and electromagnetism. sounds, extremely... alien and tough? words from my peers are not so encouraging either== 


july sounds like a busy one. i'll have fun =D


having lotsss of writing inspiration lately. i'll sort it out soon and post another one.


til then.


chaoz~

a tale to tell

okay. I know, it's exam period, I shouldn't be thinking about my so-call-philosophical stuff, but. what's in my mind have to be thrown out, so here I am again =D 


so, we're twenty, and a half, already. we have lived for two decades, and have more or less moldered our personalities into more recognizable shapes. not really as lost and in an unfixed form as before. at the age of twenty, all of us have a respectably-sort-of-long history already. and each of us have a tale to tell. 


each and everyone of us. has a story. already. and, truly speaking, none of them are dull. there's no such thing as a dull life story. come on, its twenty years. something bound to happen already. and something that, indeed, intended or not, has changed your life. or determined where and who you are today. 


stories should be appreciated. and that includes your own. in fact, its especially your own. it is history, and the markings of your very existence. yes, the past is gone. but stories can be told and retold. and that is a very beautiful thing. simply because it shows who you are. things DO happen for a reason. and there's where all the stories come from.


and it's up to us, and also fate, to find out others' stories. not those on daily workings, scandals, pleasantries, jokes and such. but STORIES, of the past. 故事。故时候发生的事。and stories as in stories in the plural form. many many little stories. all the details and bits of here and there. all of them combined and tadahhhh you can see the timeline of a person =D 


and it is when you know the stories of a person, that you really start to know someone. because, you can then see the logic and reason of the becoming of the someone, hence, understand the doings and character of the someone. 理解了才能接受，接下来就能真正认识了。 


I'm not a good listener. nor a good story teller. but, from now on, I'll like to hear all the stories I can get hold of. =p 


who is interested of my story eh? =p 


时间一旦长了，再平凡的过去，也是很美的故事。 


and the best thing is, we are young. and we have grown. from now on, we're the makers of our future stories. and we write them however we want them. =D  


自己的生活自己负责。不要写自己会后悔的故事。能够做自己喜欢的事，就是一个很美的故事。 


周围的人，已不是一起长大的同窗。所以认识后又多一番感触吧。 =p 


til then. 


chaoz~

20, and a half

half of the year has passed. so many things to remind me of this. there's mid-year sales, mid year trips =D , there's my own finals for this semester, there's friends coming back from uk for summer break, and more friends planning to go overseas in the next half year.

the end of half a year actually feels much like the end of a whole year, just maybe, its half of everything? lol. half of the year we have worked our asses off our work, be it studying or working. now it is indeed the time for a half-long break.

so, this coming break. i have PLANS!! ngehehehe! damn happening right? i know =p so first of all, i'm going to Penang with If I Die Young Taiping =D. ironic i know, we should be going to taiping instead right? lol. and then, i have this 2 day one night trip to water sports village at puchong, with PMO friends. i have never been to trips with them any more since we graduated, we had lots of school camps and trips and competitions then. those days ;) so, looking forward to it too =D and finally, i'm going to lang tengah with the zoo gang =D never, ever been to a trip with them!! the nearest thing to trip we had is cycling taman pertanian and hiking at broga hill. hee.

wahahaha. sounds fun right? but it would really be costy for me. oops. ESPECIALLY for the lang tengah trip. ESPECIALLY when i did a lot shopping this 2 months. ESPECIALLY when i drank lots of starbucks in uni these more-than-just-a-few weeks. and i ESPECIALLY need to save up every penny i have for this next two months T.T sponsor, anyone? lol.

speaking about cost. this exchange thing really needs a lot consideration. omg living expenses at the aussie is no joke. i would have to look into it during the coming holidays. and there might be another trip with zoo gang to taiwan next year i recall? or to hong kong with pei en? or to singapore AND sabah with if i die young taiping? and i might, MIGHT, need a new phone? though it's not like most of them would ACTUALLY happen in near future. but still. i need to be more careful with my expenses if i want to go to ALL the places. damn. i'm definitely not the girl who won't spend anymore. oops.

meanwhile, enjoying life even more when things are UPGRADED at home =D there's the new lcd tv first of all, which is where i would LOVE to spend all my time with (on call 36 小时, Dgray man, 大长今, HIMYM, and maybe more movies when i've downloaded them, just keep it coming =p) and the unifi. oh my gawd it makes shooo freaking much difference!!! i no longer have to WAIT to stream something. i can watch ALL the anime and mangas which i've stopped long ago mainly because of the connection speed itself. wahahaha. and this would mean i can even FINALLY upgrade my ios of my ipad. fast enough, u see. and i can also add youtube-ing as my hobby now? which cover songs are nice you say?which vlog?which awesome music videos? bring it on!! i'll just stream =D and also, an additional hard disk gives me all the spaces i need for my korean dramas. wahaha life's so kind to me ;)

if i add 'gaming' to the list, i would just be a perfect otaku girl. but, that won't happen. it just won't =D

enjoying life like a fairytale, and time just flew by. suddenly i realized i'm twenty AND A HALF. not just mere twenty any more. yet another step closer to. whatever lays ahead. still need something more to it right? ya, i'll bear that in mind.

til then.

nerd mode, people. NERD MODE!!!

keep it going~

chaoz ~