One Year

Passed the one year mark since I have started working. In gatherings, the conversations surround a singular topic - career. Our generation, the company management, the job market, the path. We are finally all official working adults.

Well, for me, this one year has indeed been an adventure, more of an internal one, rather than the physical one. Without the syllables of any more course work, growth has been increasingly more abstract. What should I go into, how should I do this, where should I look? 

For me, the answer is always Google. I have not acquired the mentor of my career and life. And I have tonnes of questions and skills which I wish I have/ want to build. The most natural thing I could do is Google it. sometimes find and read a book about it. 

The problem is, there is no outlined coursework, no deadlines, no rewards, no pressure, no commitments (yet). Without discipline, it's too easy to sway from the work required to be done to achieve something. Without urgency, procrastination and laziness set in.

I'm turning 25 next year, while I think that I have somewhat overcome my quarter life crisis, I need to start focusing my energy diligently into building my identity. No fear, stay positive, be nice, and grow great. I hope for all the energy, patience and courage in building up myself. Half of my 20s is over, when else to embrace youth other than now? 

Twenties

How can I not panic. HOW? I mean, for my whole life I've been following some sorta fixed schedule. And then I'm finally released into the real society. To work to earn and to live. Suddenly there are lights of hope everywhere, and the same amount of death traps everywhere. The universe say: off you go. do whatever you want!

The thing is, you have just to let go and try. There's 1000 worries in my head, regrets, longing, brooding, fear, of the past and of the future. But I have to let go an focus on the present. Do not compare. Do not brood on those that have been gone. Do not worry of the future. Do not fear of the unknown and possibility of failure.  It's hard to discipline my mind. But we have to accept that life is bittersweet. Happy ending does not come without hardships and challenges in life. And I already know exactly what should I do to achieve wholesomeness and good life.

Work hard, persevere, be positive, hope, build identity capital, be positive, be kind, be nice, keep in touch, be open minded, take care of my health, try new things etc etc. The thing is, this is a difficult list. In this harsh, mean society, it's so easy to get bitter and angry and lazy. Reality is hitting you in the face, wave after wave trying to tear your confidence and your patience and your soft heart apart. Temptations leading you off course begging you to procrastinate and put off that life changing plan again and again. Yet you must climb beyond all that to achieve greatness. 

Happiness is not free. It is the outcome of what you are willing to suffer. We must constantly manifest the things that would bring us happiness and blessings.

Inspired from: Eat pray love, TedTalk's 30 is not the new 20, and 50 things to do to build identify capital (basically the things that I have been reading and watching recently). For me, this is the true path. This would very much define my twenties.