so...uni life indeed...

okay. the first week of my university life has passed. so..how was it??hmm. i can say its a fresh start indeed. for the first time, going to some place with no familiar faces, no friends at the first day whatsoever. indeed, finally a chance to set up a whole new image, giving first impressions, coping culture shock..a whole new start. a perfect place to train up my 'red ness' indeed..

so how i was doing?hmmm..not that well..not that i suck or something..just this stuff can't really be rushed you know..first of all, the week starts with lectures. as in real lectures held in a big auditorium, with lights dim, and slide shows and all. ya, lecture halls ain't the best place to interact. you just sit there and listen, say hi to your neighbour beside you, after lectures, off you go to respective destinations. plus, i don't really like to sit at the front in the lecture hall, which means i actually sit among the guys, and not the girls, who sits right at the front taking down notes. oops.

next, there's this weird timetable, each people set their own timetable, chooses their own subjects. and so most probably you'll be in different classes all together for each tutorial and laboratory classes with each other..tutorial is a better place to make friends, and most of them starts in the second week. hmm..seems that i'm doing not too bad in the first week, the second week should probably be better??

so, i had make the effort to make friends okay..haha..i've actually met quite many people and talked to them. too bad all the faces are different in every class, so i haven't actually really KNOW someone..i actually even get to know people from India, Kenya, Bangladesh, Indonesia and of course people from other states. its like wow. monash is INDEED an international university..

yep. so i still don't have lunch mate, not knowing the people close enough, especially GIRLS. and the guys all look like soloist too.. oh well..i believe things would be better in the second week. having more tutorial classes and all..then i can start joining clubs and societies??hmmm..nice indeed..

so. monash huh..i never dreamt i'll actually be studying here..its like a high class university..the services is first class, the security guards are friendly and helpful..i saw there's rock climbing, snookering , Foosball facilities in the university.. WOW. compare to *cough* inti *cough*..its really different..the lecturers are nice, and i trust their teaching is good too. and their online system is wonderful!! web drive and website system those..i can access everything on my iPad!!haha..and i mean EVERYTHING. lecture notes, practices, past year assessments, announcements.. everything is so organized and ready-made..my iPad is sooooooooo useful =D

oh ya, and the library??its AWESOME.. there's more computers than enough, each also already contain all the files of all the lectures..and on the 3rd floor, there's actually a seperated room with cosy, colourful bean bags, sofas, cushions and small desks..sooo fitted for a slow study or short rest or just to hang out..so, my dad paid for me to study here. hrm. so expensive. and so i MUST study well, learn well, behave well. or i think i'll kena lightning or god'll take away all the awesome stuffs i have..like my car and iPad. hrm. choi! so, i promise to be good!!

okay. the classes. its interesting..for the first week its mostly repeating of form 5 and a level stuff, though they go through it quite fast..aiks. and i wasn't really paying attention. i believe i'll need absolute attention in future lessons, as the lectures progress quite fast. oops.. eventually i'll also need skills to jot down the lectures..hmm.. so the only interesting part of my curremt assignment now is to build a hospital!! haha.. its a project in Engineering Professions. where we're randomly spilt into groups of 5, then its like we're hired by some real life medical group, to build a actual private hospital in Bandar Puchong. cool huh?? and the main thing is to come out with a design where its energy efficient and maximises usage of reusable energy..we have to consider the cost, feasibility, energy, design, facilities, location, technology, comfort, services and other aspects we're to put in the hospital. haha. i'm in charge of the design..so i'm trying to find any materials concerning going green buildings.

hmm..uni life indeed. this is going to be a awesome four years =D

chaoz~

BLUE and RED

haha.i think this the the best post title i had, ever. hrm..anyway, i just got counselled today, by the person who called me in my previous post. haha. first, thanks him a lot!!i got a much much clearer picture of the exits where the path i chose leads to.

so, engineering. apparently, i'm suitable for it after all! phew, a great relieve. the designing of circuit or system, researching, testing, improvising. isn't that my hobby or not?haha. but apparently, although i will like it, people will get sick of it eventually after few years doing the same thing stuck in the office. some choose to leave and go into sales instead, and start a small business of selling chemicals, for instance. and you who is left behind would start to think about leaving soon too, when all the people around you went away and get a better pay outside the office. hrm. the other route is go into management, climb the corporate ladder. BUT, i need to be prepared for the social skill thingy, facade, communicating, facade, network building and stuff, and be PRO at it. aiks. sound so tough for me as a BLUE person.

hmm. or, quit the engineering world, all the adventures and possibilities, and settle down educating the younger generations instead, as a lecturer. or, continue with studying and researching until i achieve the great position as a PE?? or, quit the job thing once and for all, and stay at home as a full time housewife.lol. this is so NOT an option.

hmm..so which do i want?perfect career life or great family supporter? apparently, i need to decide now so i can focus on polishing the skills i need in these last four years of education before i step into total chaos of the outside world. its now or never.

i tell you what i want. i want BALANCE. hrm. and this is actually a tough position to be into. and why is that?because i'm OKAY with anything. i can be stuck in a office forever designing great stuff. i can start a business if i have a partner and be organised with it. i can be lecturer and be happy with youngsters. i can do part time job and live more for my future family. lol. and if i'm just okay with everything, i would not excel in anything. i would not focus and give my best to whatever i'm doing. and again, stuck in the centre, weird, middle range. this is what the 'BALANCE' i want would turn out.

see??see how bad it would be??so i have to push myself from now. bear in mind what would turn out if i don't give my best. and really really FOCUS in what i HAVE to do now. ya. my red colour. improve my red colour!!!my blue is more than enough, maybe i even won't need to work that hard to graduate as an engineer. but my RED. only freaking four years left to work with it. its do or die. i DON'T want to be a nerdy engineer who is stuck in her post and friendless forever. ( choi! btw.) apparently my 'redness' is BELOW the passing rate. aiks. i so don't want this. i wasn't like this. its the freaking bloody nerdy stupid a levels which made me turn out like this in these past two years. i was a leader. i was brave. i was active. i was SOCIAL. long ago. it should be still in me. i just need to awaken it once again. the passion to bond with people, to care, to love and to believe.

RED RED!!GO RED!!

i'm on the highway already. the 'ENGINEERING' highway. i still don't know which exit i would take that i'll be on for the rest of my life. but i know to get til the end, 'RED' is my essential catalyst. it'll craft my way and lead me to a life i can cope with, no matter what the obstacles are. i've known this for a long time already, but only in my brain. today, i've listen to exact words of my greatest failure thrown at my face by other people. its time for the problem to be faced and to be solved. its time to shape myself to a better, stronger, braver, greater person. IN THESE FOUR YEARS.

hmph. i can do it. i must do it. i must change. i must not eat my own words.

chaoz for now. til then.