ya. two post straight. its is time to sort things out anyway.
anyway. i'm gonna try to work with metaphor this time. it might be lame, but there's just this one random thought i wanna share. hee.
so, i think that, my world now is like an amoeba. you know, the insignificant little single cell micro-organism. so, like an amoeba, i've been wrapped in this small little bubble called plasma membrane since young.
first, there's diffusion through the thin little membrane. i've accepted values, education, knowledge, pretty good food through the membrane, for my own consumption.
next, this membrane is very thin. i could see through it and observe the outside world. i could see others. other organisms as well. and sometimes wonder that why i was born as an amoeba.
however, the membrane is strong, i've been wrapped up so tightly, i could hardly reach out to the big wide world. as time goes by, the amoeba grows bigger and stronger, and i tried even harder to push out to the big wide world. however, the plasma membrane has grown thicker over time. sometimes the amoeba can't even see others clearly any more. for a while, the amoeba just floats around without destination. therefore, the amoeba had been wrapped up by its own problems, eager to go out, but blinded by its own protective barrier.
but the amoeba would grow still, it would grow even bigger, and stretch out the thick plasma membrane so the world could be seen once more. even if there's still this plasma membrane it had since forever, it learnt to use its pseudopodia to reach out to others, to roll out to other places, to feel and to also see others. so, even though small and insignificant, people will one day notice her and acknowledge her.
the amoeba don't know its end. it hopes to grow bigger still until one day it explodes and the membrane is finally gone and she could finally be one with the big wide world. =D
hrm. lame. and messy. lol. embarrassed.
til then.
chaoz~
