mm hmm..its holidays already..haha..i like holidays so much nowadays, coz college life is so lifeless. the lessons are pointless, as in it won't make any difference if i attend or not..anyway, one thing to declare, i've finally made up my mind, and registered for FURTHER MATHEMATICS a levels exam already. oh my, what a huge and stubborn decision..after soooo many times tired and being fed up of self studying this whole extremely tough (i dare not say stupid) subject, who knows, i persisted. lol. i'm so suprised with my self, for staying firm for one whole year. and no tuition man!!haha..and some people say i don't have a stand, easily influenced and so..but huh!!i've hold on to a god damn subject for so long. and did not drop when so many others did. lol. but too early to be happy la..i'm still quite far from securing an A in it. well, that's the reason i'm in the super nerd mode now. haih.
anyway, i think i don't hate inti so much already.the staff are friendly. and now i have a decent chemistry lecturer, i don't have much to complain about anymore. my timetable is in order (finally) and its fees IS much cheaper than other colleges. even the exam fees are cheaper. for the same papers, i paid 825 while i heard taylor's have to pay 960?? since i got nice results for AS, well, i conclude that college's reputation isn't everything..haha..however, the fact i don't ENJOY a levels remains. different frequency, lonely in studies, no one to turn to when i'm in nerd mode (coz inti nerd mode people is very rare). oh well, getting used to it now already.
A Levels. won't miss it when it ends. from what i see and feel now anyways. ttc. well, getting lost in touch recently too..old pals..some here some there..some i miss, some i see, some i regretted, some forgets me (oh well). the turning point awaits everybody. for us 19s anyways. be prepared before we part ways again.
cny is coming, but the excitement is not. parties, visit?don't fancy much..will see how then. am feeling guilty for yet sending chinese new year card to my foster family. shit. visit to johor?not likely. haih.
so, yeah, i'm in a total nerd mode right now. as all A2 candidates, exam is in 3 and a half months time. much syllabus yet to cover, not to mention my further maths. and yeah, studies might be boring, and self study can be lonely and suffocating. but hey, its A levels, what do you expect??buck up already, people.
i have so much to catch up, with so many people i have in mind. argh. i so miss the long chats we can have anytime anywhere. BUT. i rarely even online, not to mention attend gatherings.haih.
til then?
HAPPY CNY, people.
chaoz~
Friday, January 28, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
me and miss SIO LENG HUE=]
haha. yep!!this post is dedicated to miss sio leng hue!!!my partner and best friend in so many ways, after 4 years knowing each other..haha..i specially dig out all the photos of me and miss pretty sio..to share our sweet once upon a time..haha..
"17. sit beside me in class for 3 years...noe her since we were arranged to sit together in form 3...most memorable thing said, 'i wanna go toilet' 'i wanna sleep' 'i'm hungry' etc..most memorable thing done shud be when she ponteng class and leave me alone in class...wakakaka..no la..tempt me to eat grapes or other edible stuff in class is also memorable=] A jellyfish or cute animal socks with ears are what i'll remember her by..haha"
lol. this was a description i wrote for leng hue in my old blog when i was 'tagged by louise' in july 2009 ..so this is how miss sio live her secondary school life!!NOW i remember..haha..
and wee~~we have soooo many photos for leng hue to remember me by!!
2010 sports day..i rmb leng sleeping in ttc early in the morning..haha..isin't her head round and cute????
you tian's wedding..thx god she's there to keep me company..great times=]
prom!!!!!been crazy bout it for months. how i begged leng hue to go. lol.
ws and us make a perfect 3 8 gang=]
i was wondering why i'm holding leng hue's hand like that..then i remembered, we were in a middle of a mafia game..lol.
this should be our last photo in form 5??haha..
haha..this is a picture post only..more later..bye=]
"17. sit beside me in class for 3 years...noe her since we were arranged to sit together in form 3...most memorable thing said, 'i wanna go toilet' 'i wanna sleep' 'i'm hungry' etc..most memorable thing done shud be when she ponteng class and leave me alone in class...wakakaka..no la..tempt me to eat grapes or other edible stuff in class is also memorable=] A jellyfish or cute animal socks with ears are what i'll remember her by..haha"
lol. this was a description i wrote for leng hue in my old blog when i was 'tagged by louise' in july 2009 ..so this is how miss sio live her secondary school life!!NOW i remember..haha..
and wee~~we have soooo many photos for leng hue to remember me by!!
2010 sports day..i rmb leng sleeping in ttc early in the morning..haha..isin't her head round and cute????
you tian's wedding..thx god she's there to keep me company..great times=]
prom!!!!!been crazy bout it for months. how i begged leng hue to go. lol.
GRADUATION!!wearing our brand new class-t
ws and us make a perfect 3 8 gang=]
fringe and braces gang!!!why the hell did we choose this picture for class page..lol
class trip..how i con leng hue to go..wahahaha..
nice nice 'romantic' photo=]
i was wondering why i'm holding leng hue's hand like that..then i remembered, we were in a middle of a mafia game..lol.
this should be our last photo in form 5??haha..
haha..this is a picture post only..more later..bye=]
Sunday, January 9, 2011
flipping through the old pages...
just took a visit to my old blog, "sheep in the big city"..and, sadly again, realized that my old blog is much much happier than this new one. filled with photos, coloured words, words of different sizes, and lastly total truthfulness. not that i ever lie in my blog, but in this one, as you may notice (or not), many things are hidden, not reported, or hopefully forgotten and not reminded by. i notice i've write stuff like, 'i love you, juniors!!!!', ' missing you already,my friends, who and who, 5s7!!', in my old blog, totally and truly full with emotion at the time. lol. while now, i may just have written like, what?oh ya, 'may you be well.' lol.
well, i've flip through this blog as well, and noticed that the happier tone is only during the months of july and august, when i've joined the 21st community service. haha. ya, that's a really nice event, bout 2 to 3 months long...ya, freak like me love activities, missions, tasks, challenges..things like having fun in a mall shopping, karaoke, sight seeing, (or worse, a club) or something rarely excites me..
people always say live in the now, live in the now. but, memories and past are so pretty that sometimes you just want to taste that happiness, simplicity, passion, and emotion at that particular times, again, and maybe again and again and again..
well. today is the last day of my holidays. BACK TO SCHOOL. argh. don't know happy or sad. one thing is i hate inti and one thing is i so miss studying already. haha. quite used to emotionless these days. anyway, i've finally make progress in the art works i'm talking about!!haha. sooo glad its still in my blood. hee!!!(really quite proud of myself) coz i'm lacking and lacking contact with each of my friends that i so treasure, so i usually like to make handmade souvenirs for them to remember me by!! besides that, i'm recollecting memories of all my old art works. they're like my handmade collections or something, just that they're in other people's hands, taking care of them for me.haha. hopefully i can post it here some day to remember them by..
ok. last day of holiday. having A2 this year. so, as usual in my old blog, i'll say something like this at this kinda moment...
BUCK UP!!!!!
haha..its a message dedicated to all of you.. good days to you..and by the way, its a new year already, who knows maybe things would get better=]
til then.
chaoz~
well, i've flip through this blog as well, and noticed that the happier tone is only during the months of july and august, when i've joined the 21st community service. haha. ya, that's a really nice event, bout 2 to 3 months long...ya, freak like me love activities, missions, tasks, challenges..things like having fun in a mall shopping, karaoke, sight seeing, (or worse, a club) or something rarely excites me..
people always say live in the now, live in the now. but, memories and past are so pretty that sometimes you just want to taste that happiness, simplicity, passion, and emotion at that particular times, again, and maybe again and again and again..
well. today is the last day of my holidays. BACK TO SCHOOL. argh. don't know happy or sad. one thing is i hate inti and one thing is i so miss studying already. haha. quite used to emotionless these days. anyway, i've finally make progress in the art works i'm talking about!!haha. sooo glad its still in my blood. hee!!!(really quite proud of myself) coz i'm lacking and lacking contact with each of my friends that i so treasure, so i usually like to make handmade souvenirs for them to remember me by!! besides that, i'm recollecting memories of all my old art works. they're like my handmade collections or something, just that they're in other people's hands, taking care of them for me.haha. hopefully i can post it here some day to remember them by..
ok. last day of holiday. having A2 this year. so, as usual in my old blog, i'll say something like this at this kinda moment...
BUCK UP!!!!!
haha..its a message dedicated to all of you.. good days to you..and by the way, its a new year already, who knows maybe things would get better=]
til then.
chaoz~
Monday, January 3, 2011
2011
The arrival of year 2011, indicates that i'm one more year older. age of 19, getting into university soon. the big word 'mahasiswi' 'll soon apply to me. not longer a teenager and approaching adulthood in full speed. hmmm..its only one year since i graduate from secondary school, yet i feel that my secondary school self seem already so far away. its like from age 17 to 19 is a very very big gap.. i don't feel this way when i'm from 13 to 15, or 15 to 17..
new year. feel like a whole new era this time..many friends flying off to other countries soon. so its not like i could see them now or then anymore, like last year. separation will indeed be, well, separation. no more hanging out or saying hi in similar colleges like inti, sunway or taylor's, as each now will really spread all over the world, each into different pathway, different universities, different lives and culture. yep, the path we walk on together for long, tough maybe many had remain on the same fork way for last one year, will soon reach yet another junction. this time, with hundreds of choices, not just the 5 or 6 common colleges, all long and windy, each leading into different lives and cultures, and who knows when is the next time we will meet again.
people say secondary school lives is the best times in our lives. so mine had reach an end, and could only continue to search my own way of life, my fork way at the junction and awaits people who i'll meet in the process.
friends come into our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime. what and who awaits us beyond the junction have yet been known. we can only prepare ourselves, hope and do our best, and embrace the differences and changes once more.
to my friends, may everything be well when we parted, may each of us make best of what is given to us, and finally, may we meet again, for days yet to come=]
may all be well.
chaoz~
new year. feel like a whole new era this time..many friends flying off to other countries soon. so its not like i could see them now or then anymore, like last year. separation will indeed be, well, separation. no more hanging out or saying hi in similar colleges like inti, sunway or taylor's, as each now will really spread all over the world, each into different pathway, different universities, different lives and culture. yep, the path we walk on together for long, tough maybe many had remain on the same fork way for last one year, will soon reach yet another junction. this time, with hundreds of choices, not just the 5 or 6 common colleges, all long and windy, each leading into different lives and cultures, and who knows when is the next time we will meet again.
people say secondary school lives is the best times in our lives. so mine had reach an end, and could only continue to search my own way of life, my fork way at the junction and awaits people who i'll meet in the process.
friends come into our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime. what and who awaits us beyond the junction have yet been known. we can only prepare ourselves, hope and do our best, and embrace the differences and changes once more.
to my friends, may everything be well when we parted, may each of us make best of what is given to us, and finally, may we meet again, for days yet to come=]
may all be well.
chaoz~
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