gonna be a FYP sudent

Its week 12! Again. Only one year away from being a engineering bachelor holder. A year from being part of the working world. BUT, don't want to elaborate too much on that just yet. I'm still NOT READY @@ When its time, its time.

Anyways, the fogs obscuring my future has cleared up a little bit. I, at least know, what sorta FYP projects that I might be interested in. I also know what I should do for preparation for the future. I'm also no longer lost and afraid of the future. Nervous, but much better.

Yay! to the path that is getting clearer. and yay to the upcoming holidays. i'm not gonna do a single academic related thing during this coming month. i'm shoooo sick of studying, although comparatively, the schedule for this semester is much looser as compared to the previous one (No bloody robot to build this semester).

On the other hand, i have gotten so much lazier this semester. Shooo lazyyyy to even catch up with the lectures. Two of the units i have only 40% or less knowledge, and its already the last week of the semester @@

Surprisingly, the week 12 of this semester is not a stressful one. Yes i have a lab quiz and a last assignment to submit, but the quiz is a open book test and the assignment is not due until Friday. And most of the lectures are pretty much finished or cancelled.

Sometimes I dislike Monash so much i don't know if i would like to leave my student life sooner or later. I'm hoping that doing my FYP project would be a more pleasant experience than mundane studies. Fingers crossed!

rage

"why u gonna be so rude? don't you know i'm human too? " lyrics from Rude by Magic! sang over and over again by le dear. oddly, its just the right phrase for the day. 

Yes, i've brought it upon myself. People taking me for granted and tease and mock and make fun of and criticize me and everything i love/hate. Just one step away from stomping all over the little pride i have left with cruelty and little kindness.

But, yes. i brought it upon myself. I thought i am all mighty in handling snide remarks. Sometimes, i just thought, whats so bad about giving people a little laugh? That's not too bad, i say. Its still okay. I wont let that get to me. Its just a laugh. I really do lots of stupid stuff, i understand why people laugh at me this way.

I have tolerance, yes, rather HIGH tolerance. i have patience, yes, rather GOOD patience. but, i have a BOILING POINT LIKE JUST EVERY FREAKING PERSON IN THIS WORLD. maybe excluding the monks. and priests. and all the god-like saints. but, i'm still human. and I just reached mine!

maybe i'm just not so big hearted as i thought. maybe i should stop letting little 'jokes' of people slide. maybe i should learn to fight back. you know what? that's not a healthy gathering at all. and one day all the nice people are going to stop being nice because of people like you. and i wonder why is the world such a shitty place.

shit just got real.

Different

There are just too many different people in the world. The world is in chaos because of this. Different character. Different priorities. Different language. Even in the same language, there's still different ways of speaking it. Different interest. Different frequency. Different perspective. Different paradigm. Different beliefs. Which add up to, different worlds. The more we grow, the more we differ? maybe engineers are aliens.

But they say, essentially humans are the same. Maybe someday i can learn to connect with just everybody.

Project I

ello. the title project 'I' is a project for self improvement. yesh imma so determined!!

a recent event at home is a catalyst to cause this. meh i'm sick being so bothered whenever you just decide to step all over me like i'm a piece of useless trash. whatever. i have also done hating. and imma going to do things my own way. whatever.

anyways. The first part of project 'I' is to do daily exercise. As in DAILY. lol. i've been slacking and always tend to take a break for on or two days after i've done exercise. Planking, swimming, rope jumping, running, yoga. I should add more to the list!! Second, i'm investing another large sum to extend my facial treatment package. Imma lady! I should pamper and take care of my skin. I should also spend some to restock on my facial products.  Next is English. I need to read more to improve my English. Cashflow Quadrant is a nice book. Oh, and i have not spent my RM250 book vouchers. Fourth is changing my bad habits, like slouching, mumbling, candy crushing, and well, many other things. Last but not least, imma gonna take a month of cooking lessons!! from none other than the Shifu Auntie May i have right at home! this coming semester break? imma gonna be her cooking apprentice. FOR A MONTH. lol.

yep, right now, facial, health, food and skills are the most important investments i have to make. Right. Now.

gone past that

gone past that. not complaining. not sulking. not looking back.

time to buck up and move forward. FORWARDDD. presentation. report. speak clear and concise. read. stand straight. sit up straight. laugh. enjoy. exercise. be happy. be awesome. fit and awesome =x 

imma pro at what i do. i'm pretty smart.  i have a life time to fix on what i'm lacking of. i have tonnes to learn. learn. 

gone past that. ciao.