old pals

There was a time when we shared a blog, shared a diary. That time, daily meetings were not enough. There were classes that separated us, assemblies where we were not allowed to talk, and short recess time that was not enough for us to mingle and to share secrets and stories of our daily lives. Thus, we passed around diaries, we started a blog. Just to shared our stories, our feeling, our secrets.Both did not last very long, but there was it, a time when we felt we need to share more of our lives with each other. Yep, and that “we” was the girls in our beloved zoo gang. =D

Oh. The guys were cool too. Though we did not share a blog or something, our friendship lasted. 

Its actually a really amazing gang of friends. We were just classmates here and then, we didn’t really had much in common, didn’t actually shared any experience together outside the classroom, joined different activities and tuition, yet, somehow our friendship was strong. Til now, we met up at least once each year without fail. Its very cool. =D

As we grow up, we went our separate ways. My friends have scattered all around the world. We don’t even contact each other that often. Our blog is long dead. Our characters have grown even more different. Yet, each time we meet up, the warmth is still there. We had watched each other grew up and changed over the years, the familiarity, the history we shared, its not something everyone had the opportunity to have. From mouths of another friend, from internet social media, from occasional chatting, a seemly insignificant news of each friend is a bless, a warmth, a love. 

University life is so busy. We don’t see each other often, sometimes not at all. There’s also different time zone, different university, continent even. More of the times, we got drifted along with the busy schedules and the new lives we’re having, thoughts of old friends got pushed aside to the back of the mind, forgotten. Aiks. Its only at times like this, having all the time of the world to spare, that these thoughts emerge again, and I miss them ever so badly.

Hrm. This year is an eventful one, with two very important exams. Regrettably, with much distractions (mainly iPad) and studies, I’ve neglected contacting old friends even so badly. Distracted, forgetful and busy, I’ve forgotten to wish many of my friends happy birthday. I’m really Really REALLY SORRY!! Shit. I don’t remember many of the dates and I don’t go face book that often to check with the dates. Those that I wished were birthdays either fall on the day when I so incidentally surf on the facebook, or when I came across the date of the day that it some how rang a bell so I went to check. Little I remembered. Really bad with dates. GAAHHH.

I owed so many friends birthday presents (SHIT!!). and worse still, I still have no idea what I’m gonna make this year. Every year without fail, i'll make some hand craft stuff for my friends. pom poms, little dolls, wooden book mark, drawings, name stickers, cards..i don't really buy presents, i feel making the things itself hold more meaning. but this year, i have not started any, and i'm stuck!!! no inspiration!no ideas!!shit. and the year is gonna be over soon already.

arrr. i wanna make something. hmm. 3 months. i'll come out with something.

and yea!!i got more books to read. cheers =D

til then.

chaoz~

3 months.

one semester is over already. so fast. but, looking back, this year is daaaaaamn long. imagine that i have gone through tooopid a level days at sucky inti, sat for A2 exam, got my results, enjoyed the holidays after a levels, started off uni, and now a whole semester has ended. yet, this year has not ended. Another 3 long months of summer break has began. =D

this year is so long, but it went by real fast no matter how i look at it. i've seen many people come and go in this one year. I've known many new friends in this one year. new friends. its like i never get to know them fast enough. each and every has so much history, so much in behind that i have yet to see. each character i could not grasp fast enough, that i could not truly understand. new people, not to mention weirdos, i've also met. and now i know i myself might even fall into that category @.@ new people, so different, so unique, yet so familiar.

One eighth  of my university life is over. another step closer to the real world. where i've already have a glimpse of the real world in uni. damn scary. that's all i can say. things are more complicated than it should be. things are ever changing that its too fast for me to react to.

this one year, there are many flaws and errors that i've made in dealing with stuffs. sometimes i feel like a fool. sometimes i feel like a pabo, baka, toooopid. i'm fooled, provoked, used, and cheated. happened before. and yet again and again it happens. have to learn to deal with stuff SMARTLY. ergh.

These 3 months, would be enough to digest everything i've gone through in this one year, i think. would be enough for me to pave the path which i will choose to walk, for me to learn something extra which i want to and need to.

These 3 months, no plan will be my plan. so i could be available everyday. open to all events and people and gatherings and knowledge and all sort of stuff.

These 3 months, i will work on meeting up with people, bonding with people, LOTS and LOTS of exercise, shopping, reading up all sort of stuffs, cooking sewing drawing crafting, and watch movies and dramas.

i could foresee a day where i would give up blogging all together. its hard to keep stuff to myself and to not lie in my blog at the same time. its even harder to not reveal too much and to clear up my mind at the same time. one day i would need to deal with all my thoughts by myself, no more by blogging.

til then,

chaoz~