yep yep..went to pmo concert, and i just got back home after it, and i can't wait to blog already!!!
seriously, it was
A-W-E-SOMEEEEE!!!
bravo to everyone!!good job!!excellent!!well done!!wonderful!!!fabulous!!!awesome!!!!!!!!
oh my, i'm sooo touched looking at them perform. all the juniors have grown up and independent and manage to perform so many pieces so professionally together T.T i'm gonna cry just watching at them. and how i missed those days. those performance. those concerts. some of them have been through the same performances with us. and look at them now, able to hold a concert all by their own T.T awww....
and of course, des and jaykerr simply rocked the concert. both of them look soooo cute and yeng together.haha. crystal, u missed it!!!aikss..
haih. this concert really really made me look back. see them ss after the concert. see them smile when ppl shouted encore. see them in a real big mess right before the concert. its exactly like seeing myself being there once upon a time. awww....yep. those time were over. and i'm glad i have suchhhh beautiful memories=] met many people today. met many old friends and students. met many new couples . even met ji wan with his new gf. haha. good for him=] miss him though. haha.
thankful that today i can really write my blog in a happy happy tone. looking back at my life once in a while is reali satisfying. simply lovvvvveeee pmo=]
back to the now, i'll really try to look at a levels in a new perspective. so that when i look back at it in future, i'll have a smile on my face too =] and for relationships, i'll just focus on learning to be a better person from now on, so that in future, i'll be able to meet an even better person=]
yep yep. i'm motivated. and life's gonna get busy from now on. AS is near and so is the 21st community service. and i'm really starting to like working with the edu group. looking forward to the johor pekan nanas 7 day project=]
yea yea. there's so many smiley face here today. coz i'm so happy. and i don't have to feel guilty anymore. phew. relieved. motivated. don't have to spend the rest of my days in emo mode anymore=]
busy life's starting. anticipating.won't update so often.
til then.
chaoz~
=]
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
changing
over all in my life, i've change from a nerd, to a non-nerd, and recently back to a nerd again. yep, recently, i'm obsess with studies, or actually i always am. and my image in college?a quiet, nerd.yep, quiet. dunno since when, i'm back to quiet again. haih. i miss li ying. miss talking to her. and i know she never reads blog.lol. yep, talking to li ying is fun. coz i can talk ANYTHING i want, and she'll enjoy listening=] aiks, its had to find a good listener you know, where i can talk anything from my mundane life, to anime, gossip, studies, songs, food, trip, people,family, thoughts...seriously, anything at all, and she'll never grow tired of listening. we even purposely talk in proper english, just to practise our language. lol. argh, its a long time since i can talk whatever and as freely as i want, or even talk to a person who even like to listen to what i want to say. believe it or not???i'm a real chatter box, can non stop talking and talking for an hour. but then, seems not anymore i think.
yea yea~~tomorrow is the day!!pmo concert!!!gonna meet so many old pal from pmo!!hee..shen, wei lian, weil shern, li ying and bla bla bla bla bla...so many people!!see you tomorrow=]
further maths, good choice or not? teaching, good choice or not??i'm teaching more than 10 hours a week. the times i spend in college is usually sleepy ones. i'm just sooo tired. a levels. whatever.
i'm not demotivated. just there's so many things in college i disagree with. can't blend in. different channel, seriously. oh well, just today i think. i always change my mind. and always turn to my blog when i feel something bad. so, information here is not always accurate. don't get me wrong=]
what the heck is with the title of this post??argh, lazy to think of another one actually. don't even know what i'm talking about. and notice that my post title is alwaysss disconnected with my post?? and since when there is this lack of decoration and pictures in my blog??i've been thinking through it for many times, but then. oh well.
p/s: thinking skills tells too much. it makes people think and know too much. scary~~ oh well, ignorence is a bliss=]
til then.
chaoz~
yea yea~~tomorrow is the day!!pmo concert!!!gonna meet so many old pal from pmo!!hee..shen, wei lian, weil shern, li ying and bla bla bla bla bla...so many people!!see you tomorrow=]
further maths, good choice or not? teaching, good choice or not??i'm teaching more than 10 hours a week. the times i spend in college is usually sleepy ones. i'm just sooo tired. a levels. whatever.
i'm not demotivated. just there's so many things in college i disagree with. can't blend in. different channel, seriously. oh well, just today i think. i always change my mind. and always turn to my blog when i feel something bad. so, information here is not always accurate. don't get me wrong=]
what the heck is with the title of this post??argh, lazy to think of another one actually. don't even know what i'm talking about. and notice that my post title is alwaysss disconnected with my post?? and since when there is this lack of decoration and pictures in my blog??i've been thinking through it for many times, but then. oh well.
p/s: thinking skills tells too much. it makes people think and know too much. scary~~ oh well, ignorence is a bliss=]
til then.
chaoz~
Friday, July 23, 2010
think think think...
thinking skills sure is an incredible subject. coz our lecturer is awesome!!haha...anyway, its an extra subject taken by students for AS level. coz its free, there's bout a hundred student taking the subject at the start..guess how many people is still taking it now???exactly 6=.= is thinking skills really that unbearable to study???i don't think so larh...
after the 1st few weeks, half the people drop thinking skills. argh, well, the subject seemed pointless then. after the 1st term exam, most people below grade C drop the subject..until, well, 6 of us left. but then, now we have a better lecturer, we start to understand the subject more.
ok. thinking skills have 2 parts, problem solving and argument. most people think they have to be smart, high IQ to score the subject. and guess what?its wrong. its ENGLISH you have to be good at. you have to have incredible english writing skills so you can express your answers in a right manner. yep. there's no right or wrong answer for thinking skills, just the right way of EXPRESSING your answers. and there really is much to be thought of, and all of us really have the trouble to put our thoughts into words. and vocabs, and general knowledge, and critical thinking...
yep. thinking skills in undoubtedly hard to score. unless i brush up my english, an A for the subject is 'well nigh impossible'...hee, an expression learnt from thinking skills ..so, ms. malini always tell us to 'hang in there!!' even if we found the subject hard..haha
being in the science stream again, u could guess that in class all we do is to catch up with the syllables, do pass year question, and copy notes..yep, that's what a levels is about, isn't it??100% examination oriented..lol. well, thinking skills is the ONLY single subject we have real discussions. ONLY single subject to practise our language.and to widen our perspective. seriously, its cool=] in fact, its the lesson where i learn the most in the a levels programme. so we see why taylor's college made it an compulsory subject..haha.
kay, people who want to drop thinking skills, pls don't..haha..hang in there!!
p/s: you know what?? i'm gonna blog more often from now on. coz blogging helps me think, as in to think a lot=]
til then.
chaoz~
after the 1st few weeks, half the people drop thinking skills. argh, well, the subject seemed pointless then. after the 1st term exam, most people below grade C drop the subject..until, well, 6 of us left. but then, now we have a better lecturer, we start to understand the subject more.
ok. thinking skills have 2 parts, problem solving and argument. most people think they have to be smart, high IQ to score the subject. and guess what?its wrong. its ENGLISH you have to be good at. you have to have incredible english writing skills so you can express your answers in a right manner. yep. there's no right or wrong answer for thinking skills, just the right way of EXPRESSING your answers. and there really is much to be thought of, and all of us really have the trouble to put our thoughts into words. and vocabs, and general knowledge, and critical thinking...
yep. thinking skills in undoubtedly hard to score. unless i brush up my english, an A for the subject is 'well nigh impossible'...hee, an expression learnt from thinking skills ..so, ms. malini always tell us to 'hang in there!!' even if we found the subject hard..haha
being in the science stream again, u could guess that in class all we do is to catch up with the syllables, do pass year question, and copy notes..yep, that's what a levels is about, isn't it??100% examination oriented..lol. well, thinking skills is the ONLY single subject we have real discussions. ONLY single subject to practise our language.and to widen our perspective. seriously, its cool=] in fact, its the lesson where i learn the most in the a levels programme. so we see why taylor's college made it an compulsory subject..haha.
kay, people who want to drop thinking skills, pls don't..haha..hang in there!!
p/s: you know what?? i'm gonna blog more often from now on. coz blogging helps me think, as in to think a lot=]
til then.
chaoz~
Friday, July 16, 2010
free time
see??told u i'm too free these days..always here blogging.hee=]
anyway, i read some chinese articles today!!very rare for me, coz i'll just feel sleepy whenever i see chinese characters..aiks..so, this book was from my small sis, she's trying to sell the book from 'jing cao' to earn money for choir. the chs students are selling them at rm12 while de choir members sell them 15 ringgit to outsiders..so, i'm so free that i pick up the book, and found something inspiring!! no la..just a random thought..
haha. anyway, first, i found a few familiar names in that book!!haha..i'm not really a language person, so i choose articles to read based on names (those that i noe)..haha..anyway, i start to really see the difference between writing in chinese and english. in chinese the poems really can be anything, meaningful or meaningless. and although some of them i don't even know what the heck its about, i know it should have meant something to the author..yep, chinese enable the writer to use metaphor sooooo abundantly that the readers don't even know what its about. english of course there are metaphor.. but i haven't came across one english poem use it so heavily that it can looked completely out of sense or off topic from the real meaning..yea yea..i probably haven't read something that artistic..i'm a malaysian chinese, so u should know how's my english level...
anyway, so maybe that's why some people like to write their thoughts in chinese poems..it can look soo artistic or sophisticated, as there are zero rules for a poem , and only a small insiders will be able to get the true meaning of the passage..oh well, either its secretive or artistic or writing with style i don't know..but for me, reading chinese poems sure is confusing..haha.. why turn a big big circle to deliver a simple message??haha..
hmmm..i'm from a chinese primary school and secondary school. so my chinese SHOULD be good enough to appreciate the art of chinese..i even got top marks for my chinese essay and once my essay was used as a model essay for the class!!yet i always think my chinese is bad, i hated to have to take the subject for spm..i'm glad i don't have to do anymore chinese wrting when i was graduated..yet now, i see that i could have another way of expressing myself if i could manage the art of chinese..then maybe i won't have so much trouble blogging..wanting to shout out loud yet afraid of spilling too much beans..this's my new perspective i guess..maybe with a passion to a language i would have excel more in my artistic side, rather than getting stuck in the 'blue' character and getting more extreme at the mo. maybe i'll get another way to express myself..
oops..thinking things i'm not..well, just trying to get another hobby..just to balance life a bit=]
til then.
chaoz~
anyway, i read some chinese articles today!!very rare for me, coz i'll just feel sleepy whenever i see chinese characters..aiks..so, this book was from my small sis, she's trying to sell the book from 'jing cao' to earn money for choir. the chs students are selling them at rm12 while de choir members sell them 15 ringgit to outsiders..so, i'm so free that i pick up the book, and found something inspiring!! no la..just a random thought..
haha. anyway, first, i found a few familiar names in that book!!haha..i'm not really a language person, so i choose articles to read based on names (those that i noe)..haha..anyway, i start to really see the difference between writing in chinese and english. in chinese the poems really can be anything, meaningful or meaningless. and although some of them i don't even know what the heck its about, i know it should have meant something to the author..yep, chinese enable the writer to use metaphor sooooo abundantly that the readers don't even know what its about. english of course there are metaphor.. but i haven't came across one english poem use it so heavily that it can looked completely out of sense or off topic from the real meaning..yea yea..i probably haven't read something that artistic..i'm a malaysian chinese, so u should know how's my english level...
anyway, so maybe that's why some people like to write their thoughts in chinese poems..it can look soo artistic or sophisticated, as there are zero rules for a poem , and only a small insiders will be able to get the true meaning of the passage..oh well, either its secretive or artistic or writing with style i don't know..but for me, reading chinese poems sure is confusing..haha.. why turn a big big circle to deliver a simple message??haha..
hmmm..i'm from a chinese primary school and secondary school. so my chinese SHOULD be good enough to appreciate the art of chinese..i even got top marks for my chinese essay and once my essay was used as a model essay for the class!!yet i always think my chinese is bad, i hated to have to take the subject for spm..i'm glad i don't have to do anymore chinese wrting when i was graduated..yet now, i see that i could have another way of expressing myself if i could manage the art of chinese..then maybe i won't have so much trouble blogging..wanting to shout out loud yet afraid of spilling too much beans..this's my new perspective i guess..maybe with a passion to a language i would have excel more in my artistic side, rather than getting stuck in the 'blue' character and getting more extreme at the mo. maybe i'll get another way to express myself..
oops..thinking things i'm not..well, just trying to get another hobby..just to balance life a bit=]
til then.
chaoz~
stupid timetable
yeap, my timetable is STUPID. literally. what, u don't believe its stupid???just look at wednesday's for instance, 8 to 10 i have physics, then the next lesson is 4 til 5. yep, its like what the heck??6 hours of break in between??what shud i do with the break time?go out lepak n spend money???or wait in the library for 6 whole hours until the next lesson??my time is precious wei...
so, that's why me n kai zhuang decided to give up on that hour of chemistry from 4 til 5. we leave college straight after the physics lesson.. and, we smart people head to ttc instead!!haha.. instaed of go out n lepak, we go earn money, n spread education, n help the youngsters whatsoever..erm..whatever u call it, its wayyyyy better then spending spare time at inti. n the people in my class have their ways of spending time too, girls go to have a swim at jia yee's apartment, and guys go all the way to klang to play futsal. 6 hours break wei, that's how to utilise it, get yourself a life either how u want it. oh, n the poor fellows get back to college after their break, only to find that the chemistry teacher is sick, so the class is cancelled. so these fellows compensate themselves by going all the way to klang again to havea seafood dinner. they really know how to enjoy life...haha.
hmmm. so the rest of the days of a week have beter timetable than wednesdays, but it still suck.i can't even find a common break time to have lunch with ai shuen!! aiks.no matter, i hope they'll just retain wednesday timetable. so i can continue to teach the cute little chs students. haha. somehow, they will always always lift up my mood without fail=] nah..its a teacher-student thing, many people can't experience it...hee hee hee!!!
hmmm. bet stact club's activities are gonna get me busy again. so better study hard while i have the time. AS is nearer than we think, aikss...speaking of AS, the most worrisome subjuct is thinking skills. seem like it does not matter that much of what you think, but how you express it, in professional terms. meaning your english have to be really really good. have a wide volcabulary, and the writing has to be short, compact, and straight to the point.aiks..gotta work hard on that..haha..
notice that i blog more often now??that means i'm free...aiks...til then.
chaoz~
so, that's why me n kai zhuang decided to give up on that hour of chemistry from 4 til 5. we leave college straight after the physics lesson.. and, we smart people head to ttc instead!!haha.. instaed of go out n lepak, we go earn money, n spread education, n help the youngsters whatsoever..erm..whatever u call it, its wayyyyy better then spending spare time at inti. n the people in my class have their ways of spending time too, girls go to have a swim at jia yee's apartment, and guys go all the way to klang to play futsal. 6 hours break wei, that's how to utilise it, get yourself a life either how u want it. oh, n the poor fellows get back to college after their break, only to find that the chemistry teacher is sick, so the class is cancelled. so these fellows compensate themselves by going all the way to klang again to havea seafood dinner. they really know how to enjoy life...haha.
hmmm. so the rest of the days of a week have beter timetable than wednesdays, but it still suck.i can't even find a common break time to have lunch with ai shuen!! aiks.no matter, i hope they'll just retain wednesday timetable. so i can continue to teach the cute little chs students. haha. somehow, they will always always lift up my mood without fail=] nah..its a teacher-student thing, many people can't experience it...hee hee hee!!!
hmmm. bet stact club's activities are gonna get me busy again. so better study hard while i have the time. AS is nearer than we think, aikss...speaking of AS, the most worrisome subjuct is thinking skills. seem like it does not matter that much of what you think, but how you express it, in professional terms. meaning your english have to be really really good. have a wide volcabulary, and the writing has to be short, compact, and straight to the point.aiks..gotta work hard on that..haha..
notice that i blog more often now??that means i'm free...aiks...til then.
chaoz~
Monday, July 12, 2010
dear blog
dear blog, how i wish i can confide anything i like here. but always thoughts after thoughts came to me when i wanna blog about so de idea is always n always put off.
well. tonight. nothing to do. since i did further maths for de whole day, i can't do it for the night again right??anyway, recently demotivated again..guess that's always de reason i finally turn to my blog huh?guess i dun always jot down happy thoughts or i just don't have that many happy thoughts. haha. recently i feel old. always like feelingless. or dunno how to say. i'm not like when i'm a kid, loud, bossy n reckless n carefree. i'm not like when i'm at high skul, always worring, rushing, panicking, nagging. coz, there's nothing dat i care that much. or maybe i just clamed down already. laughing less smiling less. these few days larh. bet its coz i'm too free. i have to live busy n live tough...can't really enjoy the easy ways n easy talks..
anyway. i dunno the art of talking. sometimes i just can't fit into de topic. as in my brain totally reject the topic and dunno how to mix in. sometimes i can't stop talking. n all de stupid thoughts secret no secret flow outwithout filtering. what a mess. actually dis prob have been on a long long time.. aiks. so maybe talking less now is better coz i won't say wrong stuff.hee. yala yala.that's a wrong thought. i have to change de way i think n talk. oh well. everythings crap again. my blog is no fun to read anymore. coz one of the main prob is i dun apreciate photos like i did last time. i dun even bother to bring a camera to an occasion these days.
alright. i'll give u something fun to read. haha. anw, these few days many memories came back. yep partly coz of genting trip. other than de clubbing part n the night walking part, genting is more or less de same. brought back many memories. sweet memories=] de starbucks at de lobby is still the best place to gossip in de midnight with few close frens. n i particularly remember de night when i n shen 'fled' away from the guys room due to some incident. and the gossiping part at de corridor...sweet.
so de experinice with mas 1 is much more diff den what i thought it would be. genting. just de name of it make many people think its a boring n neverchanging place. guessed i forgot the big difference that we're all 18, or 17++, NEVER once in my mind i thought that my classmates actually have de idea to go clubbing. aiks. and a big idea of it too. they brought dresses n make up n stuff. where i simply borrowed a skirt from mei yee just so i can get in to 'open eye'...
ok.after all efforts made to smuggle in. some how the whole mas 1 manage to get in the disco under de security's eye. bravo to that, really. oh well. i really did 'open' my eye alright. all de smoke n beer n loud music. at the start i can still bear with it. observing the band on stage instead of noticing their ridiculously loud music. people talk n stuff. we sat at a isolated space, so not much smoke actually got to us...
but then,past midnight, its a craze. the lightings go from little colours to stupid flashes. flash flash flash.n it don't stop there. de music goes BOM BOM BOM. i was like,so now THIS is the real clubbing, . oh well. everybody go dancing. i tried, a while. and failed. i just can't let go or go crazy. jump jump jump n swing ur hand in de air.. and that's de only thing u can do. really. coz there's so many people squashed together TRYING to dance.coz jumping is not dancing right?? n since u can't dance by swaying side to side, because of the limited space n de big big crowd. u have to dance by jumping up n down vertically to save space, occasionally stomping on somonce foot, baning into ppl n knocking into people. which, none of those even make sense. n on de dance floor de lighting n music was even unbearble.by 2 thirty or some what like that. i fled. fled from de crowd n smoke n noisen lightings. literally, fled..i practically ran back to my hotel room, with a key i rummaged out from shu huey's bag out of desperation. whocares i have to get back to 1st world hotel alone. anything just to get away from that scary place. oh well, so much for sweet 18. don't think i enjoyed de privilages much.haha.
oh well. guess i'm indeed a jakun, further maths obsessed girl. can't even stand clubbing for even a night. n considered dat i din actually do 'clubbing' , but just 'see' clubbing. n tried n failed to swing with de so-call-music a bit. oh well. can't help it.
hmmm.what's de heck with the order of this post??its a mess. from emo thoughts to so call memories den a looong complain bout clubbing.aikss. guessed that's me blogging.
hope its not much a burden for u to read.
well.til then.
chaoz~
well. tonight. nothing to do. since i did further maths for de whole day, i can't do it for the night again right??anyway, recently demotivated again..guess that's always de reason i finally turn to my blog huh?guess i dun always jot down happy thoughts or i just don't have that many happy thoughts. haha. recently i feel old. always like feelingless. or dunno how to say. i'm not like when i'm a kid, loud, bossy n reckless n carefree. i'm not like when i'm at high skul, always worring, rushing, panicking, nagging. coz, there's nothing dat i care that much. or maybe i just clamed down already. laughing less smiling less. these few days larh. bet its coz i'm too free. i have to live busy n live tough...can't really enjoy the easy ways n easy talks..
anyway. i dunno the art of talking. sometimes i just can't fit into de topic. as in my brain totally reject the topic and dunno how to mix in. sometimes i can't stop talking. n all de stupid thoughts secret no secret flow outwithout filtering. what a mess. actually dis prob have been on a long long time.. aiks. so maybe talking less now is better coz i won't say wrong stuff.hee. yala yala.that's a wrong thought. i have to change de way i think n talk. oh well. everythings crap again. my blog is no fun to read anymore. coz one of the main prob is i dun apreciate photos like i did last time. i dun even bother to bring a camera to an occasion these days.
alright. i'll give u something fun to read. haha. anw, these few days many memories came back. yep partly coz of genting trip. other than de clubbing part n the night walking part, genting is more or less de same. brought back many memories. sweet memories=] de starbucks at de lobby is still the best place to gossip in de midnight with few close frens. n i particularly remember de night when i n shen 'fled' away from the guys room due to some incident. and the gossiping part at de corridor...sweet.
so de experinice with mas 1 is much more diff den what i thought it would be. genting. just de name of it make many people think its a boring n neverchanging place. guessed i forgot the big difference that we're all 18, or 17++, NEVER once in my mind i thought that my classmates actually have de idea to go clubbing. aiks. and a big idea of it too. they brought dresses n make up n stuff. where i simply borrowed a skirt from mei yee just so i can get in to 'open eye'...
ok.after all efforts made to smuggle in. some how the whole mas 1 manage to get in the disco under de security's eye. bravo to that, really. oh well. i really did 'open' my eye alright. all de smoke n beer n loud music. at the start i can still bear with it. observing the band on stage instead of noticing their ridiculously loud music. people talk n stuff. we sat at a isolated space, so not much smoke actually got to us...
but then,past midnight, its a craze. the lightings go from little colours to stupid flashes. flash flash flash.n it don't stop there. de music goes BOM BOM BOM. i was like,so now THIS is the real clubbing, . oh well. everybody go dancing. i tried, a while. and failed. i just can't let go or go crazy. jump jump jump n swing ur hand in de air.. and that's de only thing u can do. really. coz there's so many people squashed together TRYING to dance.coz jumping is not dancing right?? n since u can't dance by swaying side to side, because of the limited space n de big big crowd. u have to dance by jumping up n down vertically to save space, occasionally stomping on somonce foot, baning into ppl n knocking into people. which, none of those even make sense. n on de dance floor de lighting n music was even unbearble.by 2 thirty or some what like that. i fled. fled from de crowd n smoke n noisen lightings. literally, fled..i practically ran back to my hotel room, with a key i rummaged out from shu huey's bag out of desperation. whocares i have to get back to 1st world hotel alone. anything just to get away from that scary place. oh well, so much for sweet 18. don't think i enjoyed de privilages much.haha.
oh well. guess i'm indeed a jakun, further maths obsessed girl. can't even stand clubbing for even a night. n considered dat i din actually do 'clubbing' , but just 'see' clubbing. n tried n failed to swing with de so-call-music a bit. oh well. can't help it.
hmmm.what's de heck with the order of this post??its a mess. from emo thoughts to so call memories den a looong complain bout clubbing.aikss. guessed that's me blogging.
hope its not much a burden for u to read.
well.til then.
chaoz~
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