yes yes. i'm a very anxious person. less than two years into my program, i'm already being nervous about how the industry would look like. how should i cope. exactly how the corporate people look like. did i even get into the wrong field etc. so, thanks to the ELP tadahhhh i met about a dozen of them last Friday. not just any engineers, most of them are experienced leaders and entrepenaurs, not to mention with titles of Dr Ir etc. For this, i'm thankful for Monash to actually get those elders to mentor us, for a year! this is something you might not even have the chance to get, even if you PAY for it. truly truly a GOLDEN oppurtunity.
anyways, i've met my mentor. and he's awesome! quite young, compare to the other mentors, yet his history is already quite amazing. and most importantly, he's so friendly and willing to share. we met up before the program launching, and he talked to us for a whole hour non stop! he even told us his schedule and already asked us to join him for weekend lunch. Since most of them are leaders of the industry, they must be extremely busy. For them to initiatively make time for us, not waiting for us to make appointment with them, that is something rare. i'd be an idiot to not treasure it.
so what are the mentors for, u'd ask? basically the ELP is a program where we students undertake ourselves. but having mentors is like knowing that someone is watching your back, and there'll always be someone whom you can approach if you need advice of any sort. they are the current leaders, we are of the future. if we can learn from them, at this early stage of life, we could, as quoted from a friend, start ahead and stay ahead.
ya. finally a tiny peek into the working world. the BIG people are also people. not too scary. at least our mentors aren't. and the uni life, has almost nothing similar to the industry. and also, if you are going to be a REAL engineer, life will be as challenging as it could be. life ain't easy. guess i should just bear that in mind.
time to evolve. and this time, there's something else at the back of my head: not only that i will strive hard, i will also make my mentor proud.
til then.
ciao~
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Challenge Accepted
First of all, i would like to share a piece of good news. i got into the ELP a.k.a. the Engineering Leadership Program!!! not that i'm THAT thrilled over it. just that, its a tini tiny accomplishment for me this year, not to mention its an open door to many many more!
so, the first meeting of the ELP goes okay. First thing that cross my mind is how cool all the others look like. i could notice a number of natural leaders among the group already. half of me is feeling intimidated, and another half of me is actually glad to have the chance to work alongside them. time to learn!! time to evolve. time to let loose of myself and step outside, way way wayyyy outside of my comfort zone.
Another thing that crossed my mind is a sense of panic. God knows how i have no idea whatsoever how to even face the respectable, more-intimidating-looking industry mentors/leaders/seniors. i suck BIG TIME at social. especially at formal events. argh. they are the VIPs of this coming Friday during the program launching. and we are supposed to INTRODUCE OURSELVES to them. gosh. I'm already secretly glad that the event is only 2 hours long hence we won't need to spend too much time around them @@. i know i won't magically turn into a social pro who is able to start a professional chat without breaking a sweat immediately. guess the only thing i can go for is to BE (not act) more friendly and try my very very best to BE (not act) more natural and hopefully manage to actually start a real talk with the elders. i'm freaking out. ergh.
and the next fear: MONKEY BARS. argh. this is one i COULD NEVER overcome. not until i spend time practising arm wrestles or lifting dumbbells or doing push ups anyway. i have helplessly small strength. and the ELP is going to a camp retreat this coming Monday. that means MONKEY BARS are unavoidable! i guess. T.T and the wall thingy. i'm only able to climb up if i'm stepping on another person.
and the next fear: not being able to fit in. sigh. this is also something that can easily happen. i'm somewhat different and alien and sakai i don't know. but hopefully i won't just go anti-social all of a sudden and fall out of the group. sigh.
guess that's quite a lot of fear i have already. but if that's not the case, there's no point for me to join this program already right? i join to overcome my fear, my limitations, my incompatibilities. so. here's a list! Lists are awesome! i tend to do things better with a seqence. haha. okay. so, the list of things to be done and of goals to be achieved!
1. presentation skills! this is something i could improve on!! finally have a hang of it since my teaching career. big thanks to ttc! but maybe its time to add some spices, some interaction, some humour?! @@ into it.
2. social skills. start with pairs? do my homework. get ready to face the BIG people.
3. leadership skills. a ALL rounded leader. compatability. and the ability to control, trust and influence.
4. let loose. i'm still so winded up by myself. time to decrease the reluctance level, the hesitation level, the pessimism level, and increase the DARING level!!!
i hope this would not be just another camp. i hope that i won't be doing the same things that i already know of. i hope that my heart will be big enough this time, it won't crush under all the pressure, stress, and negativities when the time comes.
til then.
ciao~
so, the first meeting of the ELP goes okay. First thing that cross my mind is how cool all the others look like. i could notice a number of natural leaders among the group already. half of me is feeling intimidated, and another half of me is actually glad to have the chance to work alongside them. time to learn!! time to evolve. time to let loose of myself and step outside, way way wayyyy outside of my comfort zone.
Another thing that crossed my mind is a sense of panic. God knows how i have no idea whatsoever how to even face the respectable, more-intimidating-looking industry mentors/leaders/seniors. i suck BIG TIME at social. especially at formal events. argh. they are the VIPs of this coming Friday during the program launching. and we are supposed to INTRODUCE OURSELVES to them. gosh. I'm already secretly glad that the event is only 2 hours long hence we won't need to spend too much time around them @@. i know i won't magically turn into a social pro who is able to start a professional chat without breaking a sweat immediately. guess the only thing i can go for is to BE (not act) more friendly and try my very very best to BE (not act) more natural and hopefully manage to actually start a real talk with the elders. i'm freaking out. ergh.
and the next fear: MONKEY BARS. argh. this is one i COULD NEVER overcome. not until i spend time practising arm wrestles or lifting dumbbells or doing push ups anyway. i have helplessly small strength. and the ELP is going to a camp retreat this coming Monday. that means MONKEY BARS are unavoidable! i guess. T.T and the wall thingy. i'm only able to climb up if i'm stepping on another person.
and the next fear: not being able to fit in. sigh. this is also something that can easily happen. i'm somewhat different and alien and sakai i don't know. but hopefully i won't just go anti-social all of a sudden and fall out of the group. sigh.
guess that's quite a lot of fear i have already. but if that's not the case, there's no point for me to join this program already right? i join to overcome my fear, my limitations, my incompatibilities. so. here's a list! Lists are awesome! i tend to do things better with a seqence. haha. okay. so, the list of things to be done and of goals to be achieved!
1. presentation skills! this is something i could improve on!! finally have a hang of it since my teaching career. big thanks to ttc! but maybe its time to add some spices, some interaction, some humour?! @@ into it.
2. social skills. start with pairs? do my homework. get ready to face the BIG people.
3. leadership skills. a ALL rounded leader. compatability. and the ability to control, trust and influence.
4. let loose. i'm still so winded up by myself. time to decrease the reluctance level, the hesitation level, the pessimism level, and increase the DARING level!!!
i hope this would not be just another camp. i hope that i won't be doing the same things that i already know of. i hope that my heart will be big enough this time, it won't crush under all the pressure, stress, and negativities when the time comes.
til then.
ciao~
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
BO JIO
LOL. this is fun. the IIDYT rarely debates about something interesting. but when we do, the topic is BO JIO. ahahaha. come to think of it it's kinda funny. and a little childish. but whatever.
anyways. the thing is, the group has grown so big, asking everybody to attend to every event is actually becoming tougher. with timetable clashes, busy schedule, everyone is busy with their own world. Hence, there starts the 'Bo Jio' thing.
At first, a lot people just use it as a joke. Hey, Bo jio! and you would know that fellow, who totally does not intend to be jio-ed, is just being playful and teasing you. On the other hand, when it happens within the group, it means a different thing. it means blaming the person of lack of thoughts, for bo sim, for forgetting to include EVERYONE.
then, when the usage is mixed up, when people use it for just everything, Bo Jio just seems like another annoying word. lunch Bo jio. toilet Bo jio. buy books Bo jio. just when does the list ends @@ sometimes, the person whom the phrase ' bojio' is directed to, just gets tired of being blamed ALL the time. At that time, no one would care whether its teasing or real blaming. it has become overload. that person would just get very very annoyed, right?
is there really a NEED to jio for everything. sigh. why this habit le. just say that you want to join, it's simple enough. just say you are sad that we didn't ask u to the event ( if you are truly sad), simple enough too. since the trend of this 'Bo jio' started, only did this NEED for jio came about right? didn't we all do just fine before that.
since everyone has different definitions for ' Bo jio'. maybe just be aware how this two words would sound like to others. Often, the person who speaks the words does not realize the impact of it on others. it's a bit selfish. no? also, the 'receiver' could just ignore. but that just means the word has already became meaningless.
til then.
ciao~
anyways. the thing is, the group has grown so big, asking everybody to attend to every event is actually becoming tougher. with timetable clashes, busy schedule, everyone is busy with their own world. Hence, there starts the 'Bo Jio' thing.
At first, a lot people just use it as a joke. Hey, Bo jio! and you would know that fellow, who totally does not intend to be jio-ed, is just being playful and teasing you. On the other hand, when it happens within the group, it means a different thing. it means blaming the person of lack of thoughts, for bo sim, for forgetting to include EVERYONE.
then, when the usage is mixed up, when people use it for just everything, Bo Jio just seems like another annoying word. lunch Bo jio. toilet Bo jio. buy books Bo jio. just when does the list ends @@ sometimes, the person whom the phrase ' bojio' is directed to, just gets tired of being blamed ALL the time. At that time, no one would care whether its teasing or real blaming. it has become overload. that person would just get very very annoyed, right?
is there really a NEED to jio for everything. sigh. why this habit le. just say that you want to join, it's simple enough. just say you are sad that we didn't ask u to the event ( if you are truly sad), simple enough too. since the trend of this 'Bo jio' started, only did this NEED for jio came about right? didn't we all do just fine before that.
since everyone has different definitions for ' Bo jio'. maybe just be aware how this two words would sound like to others. Often, the person who speaks the words does not realize the impact of it on others. it's a bit selfish. no? also, the 'receiver' could just ignore. but that just means the word has already became meaningless.
til then.
ciao~
Friday, March 8, 2013
new semester
hi all!! yes another semester has finally started. and yes, there's ends my 3-and-a-half months holidays. those who were jealous of my holidays can finally laugh at me now, my holidays are over, and here comes the twelve hellish week =/
anyways, no matter how sucky this semester would turn out, i would just bear in mind that its impossible for this semester to get any worse than the last one. ya, my last hellish-struggling-with-digitals-and-nader semester. These sem, i have THREE Chinese lecturers!! not that i'm racist or sth, the obvious difference compared to last semester is just hard to ignore. so ya, i'm happy with my lecturers this semester V^^
also, some how, maybe after going through such hellish semester last semester, this sem, i'm some what more prepared and not as panicky as before. or maybe its just that i've only gone through the first week? @@ hopefully the hopeful feeling won't just be an illusion but that i've really leveled up my tolerance skill.
besides studies, i'm having lots of extras. i'm giving more classes: seven-and-a-half-hours per week, its like having an extra subject on top of the four i'm having in uni. also, there's this ELP- Engineering Leadership Program thingy going on, if my application is successful, that is. and d2y has another couple of events going on, even though i declined the offer to head one of the projects, i've agreed to help out. PLUS i'm suppose to attend weekly mbs activities to support my friend.
gosh. still trying to fit EVERYTHING into my timetable. let's take a look at the math: 24 study hours in uni including lectures, lab work, and tutorials. 7& a half hour of teachings. from fatfish's analysis, i'm going to have WEEKLY lab work from all FOUR units. WEEKLY quizzes and MID-TERM test for THREE units. TWO units with lab tests. and one with mini project. all these require extra study hours and tedious preparations no doubt. what, u think its scary? try adding ELP and D2Y into the pile @@
if i would have any of the extra time left, it would be ALL for sleeping, and some for eating. gosh how to get a boyfriend like that? lol just kidding i' not desperate. anyways, it'll definitely eat up most of my social times. any gatherings?? put it after the end of june, people!!
til then.
ciao.
anyways, no matter how sucky this semester would turn out, i would just bear in mind that its impossible for this semester to get any worse than the last one. ya, my last hellish-struggling-with-digitals-and-nader semester. These sem, i have THREE Chinese lecturers!! not that i'm racist or sth, the obvious difference compared to last semester is just hard to ignore. so ya, i'm happy with my lecturers this semester V^^
also, some how, maybe after going through such hellish semester last semester, this sem, i'm some what more prepared and not as panicky as before. or maybe its just that i've only gone through the first week? @@ hopefully the hopeful feeling won't just be an illusion but that i've really leveled up my tolerance skill.
besides studies, i'm having lots of extras. i'm giving more classes: seven-and-a-half-hours per week, its like having an extra subject on top of the four i'm having in uni. also, there's this ELP- Engineering Leadership Program thingy going on, if my application is successful, that is. and d2y has another couple of events going on, even though i declined the offer to head one of the projects, i've agreed to help out. PLUS i'm suppose to attend weekly mbs activities to support my friend.
gosh. still trying to fit EVERYTHING into my timetable. let's take a look at the math: 24 study hours in uni including lectures, lab work, and tutorials. 7& a half hour of teachings. from fatfish's analysis, i'm going to have WEEKLY lab work from all FOUR units. WEEKLY quizzes and MID-TERM test for THREE units. TWO units with lab tests. and one with mini project. all these require extra study hours and tedious preparations no doubt. what, u think its scary? try adding ELP and D2Y into the pile @@
if i would have any of the extra time left, it would be ALL for sleeping, and some for eating. gosh how to get a boyfriend like that? lol just kidding i' not desperate. anyways, it'll definitely eat up most of my social times. any gatherings?? put it after the end of june, people!!
til then.
ciao.
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