Sunday, September 25, 2011

mango vs banana

when a mango talks to bananas, there will always have some misunderstanding.

here's an example of a conversation between a mango and bananas. EPIC!!

me: (trying to write presentation script) ehh, how to say 方便 in english ar??
banana 1: fang bian? room.
banana 2: behind.

*pause*

me: HUH???
banana 1: room la. room is...oh ya. room is fang2 jian1 horh?
me: huh???房间? i say 方便 larhh. then why is it 'behind'??
banana 2: erm. fang bian ma. behind lo.
me: errrr. behind is 后面la
banana 2: oh ya horh!!sounds the same.

banana 1: (still trying to help) i know! fang bian is put aside.
me: what?????
banana 1: (reconsidering answer) fang bian fang bian...oh ya, that is fang4 yi4 bian1 horh??
me: 放一边??

me: (gave up, ask third party)what is 方便??
ch: convenient la..
banana 1 and 2 : oh ya horhhhh.......

conclusion: bananas aren't the best dictionary for a mango =D

mango

i have an inspiration, indeed. after weeks racking my brain on how should i include secret codes, or how should i put the 'do not read aloud' sign in my blog post, just so my blog can be a little more private, the OBVIOUS solution came to me today. how have i not thought about it earlier??? the solution is..... type in CHINESE!! wahaha. simple yet perfect. more than half on my uni friends can't read or write Chinese, this would work well. imma genius. =D

but. I'm not that bad la. and I'm more comfortable typing in English. I'll just put in few sentences in Chinese.lol.

ya. mango. a term my friends came out with, which more or less summarise who and how i am. lol. I've spend years writing and blogging about how typical Chinese educated i am, how Chinese i act, how Chinese i live, and never encounter one simple term that summarise it all. MANGO. so lame yet so true. i'm proud and at the same time frustrated to be such a mango. typical mango quality: hardworking, self-motivated, responsible, closed minded?, traditional, kia su, honest...i dunno, there's pros and cons. all i know is, to be an engineer, a mango certainly couldn't work, at least its not enough to excel la. and i don't even know if i want to excel or not. oops.

何去何从??? once again, i'm lost. now that i'm living again, i'm encountering countless, different, unique human characters every single day. some which i can never understand, some i don't like, and some that i've hoped for all my life that i would have. lol. at this age, pre-adult age, trying to change and grow and go for the better. but, at the same time, everything is contradicting each other. my values and others, others values and my family's. its not like i have a sensei to ask for answers everytime this happens. its always me myself trying to figure out, stuck in between, and finally let it pass as if its nothing. there's always too many limitations. sometimes, i really really want to delete my whole personality, CHOOSE the character i want, and reset the whole thing all over again.

but then, here i am, still. slightly retarded, always too revealing, and easily scammed. lol. the best prey for everyone. haih. FACADE. how long have i been working on it? ever since i've encountered this term. damn phhhaaaaiil...

hmmm. but at least, as a mango, i'll always have the heart to continue to work for what i want. to have faith. to never give up. to believe.

when everything suddenly slows down, thoughts from nowhere came crashing into my mind. blog is where i unbottle it, arrange and reorganize it, so it'll be empty again to do other stuff.

far future always gives me the creeps. while near future always keep me busy from thinking about it.

step by step. one step at a time. taking baby steps. that's what i'll do for now =]

til then.

chaoz~

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

If I Die Young Taiping

haha. what a title. so ya. if i die young. finally listened to this song. its a beautiful song, and sort-of-some-how-i-don't-really-know-why turned out as our 'group's ' song. haha. so its my favourite song for now, without the 'taiping', of course.

since i know my ADORABLE friends are reading this blog, i'll just as well post about them. =p
so, our little group. consist of people of all different kinds, but united in two different ways: to-be-engineers and bananas ( majority) . or maybe half bananas. lol. so interpreted by this manner, I've ended up as the precious mango species, being yellow at the outside and the inside. wahaha.

so, people in our group. lively as ever. especially the 2 scammers. one Abu Bakar from the forest and one lead singer from if-i-die-young-taiping-band. they are... PRO like hell. the two backgrounds i mentioned are those i've actually believe in for weeks. sadly. i don't even wanna believe a single word they'd say anymore. and the scamming habit is actually spreading among our group, which is bad. coz it means i have to improve my skills in detecting them.

anyways, our first trip together will be 'broga hill trip to taiping' this Friday. i have no idea why everything relates to taiping. lol. anyhow, it'll be exciting as we plan to climb the hill at dawn, in the dark. hrm. too bad, there's no rabbit sate for later (there's a rabbit farm which is rumored to sell rabbit sate where you can eat the sate and play with the rabbits at the same time some where near broga hill apparently).

ya. so life now is basically revolving around studying, assignments, and of course our fellow 'if i die young taiping' crew mates. not much, but I've haven't really started joining any activities in uni or anything, and have stopped teaching at ttc since uni started. pretty interesting already, though there's of course more time to spare. so, had came face to face with my biggest obstacle again. public speaking. haih. red. this is EXACTLY what i'm talking about. I'm so totally beaten and disheartened by it. if things don't get better, i'll surely get stressed out again. hrm. solution? toastmaster i think. as proposed by both my sis and Prof. Matthew. people like me really need it, i think. haih.

anyways, life's good. when i say its good, i mean, really awesome. =D seriously. everything is so great and fine and cool and happy. i feel like, I'm back in.... form 3 again. or form 4 and 5. those are the happy days of my high school life. I've finally start to open up again, i think.

hrm. looks like I've come from a long way since then. this year, 2011, seems like a very long year. its only September but i feel like its been for ages. mostly because it consists of 3 stages, from a levels, to long holidays, to my first semester of university. things have changed and progressed so much i couldn't really catch up to it. no matter, things have gone for the better, and things are going in my way for once =D.

owh. I'll not blog until mid term holidays. i can so foresee that already. given TONNES of assignments to complete by next Friday. not exaggerating either. I'm so so dead if i cant finish them on time.

hrm. life's busy. and full. good news for me. less time thinking, more time working. enjoying it =D


til then.

chaoz~

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Sing A Happy Song =D

woohoo..recently life is in a happy tone..need to get used to all these great stuff, really. since when do i feel such happiness to just attend daily classes?? i actually go to uni for the purpose of meeting friends instead of just to study..this emphasize how really lifeless a levels is. i mean, its normal to feel happy going to school right? after all, school life is like one of the best moments in life. its NORMAL to feel good just going to classes. finally, i feel like i'm back to my high school self, my normal self.. its weird how much disconnected i feel after only one and a half years of shittiness to be back to old self. well, life in monash is awesome anyways, so i'll get used to all the great stuff soon enough. =D

and ya. my BELOVED uni friends found out about this blog. screw Google =.= argh. this means, i can't be THAT frank in blog any more. how embarrassing it is for them to find out about 'banana-cified'. LOL. haha. but seriously, how much can i hide from the way i blog??hrm.. a challenge then. maybe i should try secret codes or something..wahaha.

okay. back to topic. life is awesome yet apparently not all people in monash are adorable like my friends. haha. i meant, they are really some JERKS in monash!!referring to the B people again. hmph!! how much trouble they've caused me!!those thick-faced-yet-tin-kosong BASTARDS!!! omg. can't believe people like them do exist man..how can they live to themselves??argh. no more elaboration here or it'll spoil my blogging mojo.

anyways, my iPad is seriously causing a problem these days. it distracts not only me, but my fellow friends too!! soooo many people are blaming me for it.. argh well. can't blame them for that coz i myself is infected by the 'iPad virus' too. hmph. seriously, strict self discipline is needed for owning an iPad as awesome as mine. hee.

oh. and the so-called-fun-building-a-hospital-project i mentioned last post??turn out to be nothing but useless and stressful work!!argh. now i soooo HATE engineering profession. there's endless assignments. literally ENDLESS. not to mention damn annoying, with all the very close datelines and many stupid criteria to follow while doing the assignment. ishh,,

so, uni life. LOVE IT. despite the annoying people and subject. wahaha. but things are gonna start to get busy and even stressful. there's datelines to be meet, all sorts of tests, quizzes, assignments and self-revision to be done. and i can say the same for all my friends in my batch. almost everyone had started uni by now, be it here or overseas, all working hard to prepare for the future..its like WOW. finally we're going out there too.. i wonder what it will be like when all of us start to work, get married, have a family, grow old and all. it'll be like a sight of no other. a cycle that has repeated itself over a zillion times yet still a miracle..touching right?haha. i don't know. its just like friends are now scattered all over the place but i know we're bound to bump into each other again one fine day =D

anyways, the inspiration of the post title this time comes from the 'smurf' movie. haha. cute yet meaningful i think. its a nice movie =D

i've noticed that i've go more for =D than =] this days.. haha..means my smile is getting bigger!!maybe i'll need even bigger smile like XD or XXD for the future days. hee =D


til then.

chaoz~