recently, i've laze around so much that i'm starting to feel the guilt. now each time i watch a drama, i laze in bed, a voice would pop out saying ' you have something better to do than this' . arrrr. seems like my days to laze around have to finally stop and i will have to start to journey on the road again.
ya. i'm the kind of person that could barely pass my own conscience when i break a little small rule. i would feel anxious if i'm simply late for class. i would feel guilty when i decided to skip a class, or when i stay up late way past bed time, or when i'm late for home. and i would more or less freak out when i'm going to try a new road or a new way. pathetic.
all these god damn rules. who cares if i break them here and there? RULES. why are we even taught, trained even, to follow them? could rules bring us anywhere? what happen to being innovative, courageous, passionate, and enthusiastic? why aren't we taught of these at all? why aren't we taught to FEEL all these? they don't just come with age, you know. we have to PRACTISE them, like regularly, or they're as well as gone.
though this doesn't mean that i should continue to laze around. anyway, i think a no-rule-policy would be healthy for me even, a little extremity is good, a little nudge/ inspiration to do something crazy enough to stay with me for a lifetime, why not? that's what i lack of anyway, it would fix the mood-less problem right away.
let's say something very worthwhile and important pops up, i wish i would just give all i got for it.
on a completely different line of thought,
人要先认清自己，然后喜欢自己，才能展现自己。
如果是这样，我想是时候我应该进入第二阶段了。
til then.
chaoz~
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