closure

hi guys. I'm here because I'm done with three papers!! not that I did great. seriously, too much last minute preparations for this semester. I won't be surprised if I lost all my HD's this semester. sigh. Maybe there's too much on my plate this semester, with teaching (4 classes), and distractions and all. my internals was much better, thanks to the seniors answers and duh thanks to pkp. lol, seriously I won't put so much effort into internals if its not because of him constantly pressuring us. lol. 

Anyways, time to clear my mind. there's so much going on in there. I realized something, I'm not a logical person at all. I'm not the so call bluish person I thought I am. People around me are much for logical and realistic and practical. while sometimes I find myself being stuck in my own dreamy-blurr-imaginative thinking.  

I've been researching on horoscopes lately. with google and of course consulting the pro-- my sis. I used to not believe in the 'crap', how could such complicated personalities of the humans be described based on some stars and birth dates? sounds ridiculous, no? But through some observations, i finally accepeted that some of the theories are actually true and applicable. See? how logical could I be to actually believe in horoscopes and to keep researching to search for answers? not so, huh. anyways, I learnt quite a lot. ahaha. to observe the personalities of others. lol. finally huh? used to spend too much time reflecting and being self-conscious to analyse the other people. finally, the fish is swimming out. 

do not simplify complicated things, do not complicate simple things. this is something I've read about somewhere. hmm, don't simplify complicated things huh, no wonder I always lost control in life. I'm managing things the wrong way and trying to fit things into places they're not meant to be. 

so, complicated things are just complicated huh? a lesson to teach us that there's no shortcut in life. the way has already been determined ages ago, whether you like it or not, and either you deal with it, or suck at it. so things that ain't in your field, are not your field. that's the truth.

anyways, there's nothing much to look forward to during the coming holidays. No trips, no anything. but sure, there's a couple friends coming back from overseas that I wish to spend time with, a few books I want to finish, and maybe some future plans which I need to sort out. Other than that, nothing major. oh well, save money for bigger trips in the future, I think. 

And going into Year 3 in less than two months time. oh my gosh. guess I really have to change/upgrade/evolve my study habit. else, I won't be able to cope!! like seriously. sigh. and other things as well, how much further can I push myself? hmm. hwaitinggg~ 

til then. 

ciao~