Saturday, March 30, 2013

Engineer Your World

yes yes. i'm a very anxious person. less than two years into my program, i'm already being nervous about how the industry would look like. how should i cope. exactly how the corporate people look like. did i even get into the wrong field etc. so, thanks to the ELP tadahhhh i met about a dozen of them last Friday. not just any engineers, most of them are experienced leaders and entrepenaurs, not to mention with titles of Dr Ir etc. For this, i'm thankful for Monash to actually get those elders to mentor us, for a year! this is something you might not even have the chance to get, even if you PAY for it. truly truly a GOLDEN oppurtunity.

anyways, i've met my mentor. and he's awesome! quite young, compare to the other mentors, yet his history is already quite amazing. and most importantly, he's so friendly and willing to share. we met up before the program launching, and he talked to us for a whole hour non stop! he even told us his schedule and already asked us to join him for weekend lunch. Since most of them are leaders of the industry, they must be extremely busy. For them to initiatively make time for us, not waiting for us to make appointment with them, that is something rare. i'd be an idiot to not treasure it.

so what are the mentors for, u'd ask? basically the ELP is a program where we students undertake ourselves. but having mentors is like knowing that someone is watching your back, and there'll always be someone whom you can approach if you need advice of any sort. they are the current leaders, we are of the future. if we can learn from them, at this early stage of life, we could, as quoted from a friend, start ahead and stay ahead.

ya. finally a tiny peek into the working world. the BIG people are also people. not too scary. at least our mentors aren't. and the uni life, has almost nothing similar to the industry. and also, if you are going to be a REAL engineer, life will be as challenging as it could be. life ain't easy. guess i should just bear that in mind.

time to evolve. and this time, there's something else at the back of my head: not only that i will strive hard, i will also make my mentor proud.

til then.

ciao~

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Challenge Accepted

First of all, i would like to share a piece of good news. i got into the ELP a.k.a. the Engineering Leadership Program!!! not that i'm THAT thrilled over it. just that, its a tini tiny accomplishment for me this year, not to mention its an open door to many many more!

so, the first meeting of the ELP goes okay. First thing that cross my mind is how cool all the others look like. i could notice a number of natural leaders among the group already. half of me is feeling intimidated, and another half of me is actually glad to have the chance to work alongside them. time to learn!! time to evolve. time to let loose of myself and step outside, way way wayyyy outside of my comfort zone.

Another thing that crossed my mind is a sense of panic. God knows how i have no idea whatsoever how to even face the respectable, more-intimidating-looking industry mentors/leaders/seniors. i suck BIG TIME at social. especially at formal events. argh. they are the VIPs of this coming  Friday during the program launching. and we are supposed to INTRODUCE OURSELVES to them. gosh. I'm already secretly glad that the event is only 2 hours long hence we won't need to spend too much time around them @@. i know i won't magically turn into a social pro who is able to start a professional chat without breaking a sweat immediately. guess the only thing i can go for is to BE (not act) more friendly and try my very very best to BE (not act) more natural and hopefully manage to actually start a real talk with the elders. i'm freaking out. ergh.

and the next fear: MONKEY BARS. argh. this is one i COULD NEVER overcome. not until i spend time practising arm wrestles or lifting dumbbells or doing push ups anyway. i have helplessly small strength. and the ELP is going to a camp retreat this coming Monday. that means MONKEY BARS are unavoidable! i guess. T.T and the wall thingy. i'm only able to climb up if i'm stepping on another person.

and the next fear: not being able to fit in. sigh. this is also something that can easily happen. i'm somewhat different and alien and sakai i don't know. but hopefully i won't just go anti-social all of a sudden and fall out of the group. sigh.

guess that's quite a lot of fear i have already. but if that's not the case, there's no point for me to join this program already right? i join to overcome my fear, my limitations, my incompatibilities. so. here's a list! Lists are awesome! i tend to do things better with a seqence. haha. okay. so, the list of things to be done and of goals to be achieved!

1. presentation skills! this is something i could improve on!! finally have a hang of it since my teaching career. big thanks to ttc! but maybe its time to add some spices, some interaction, some humour?! @@ into it.

2. social skills. start with pairs? do my homework. get ready to face the BIG people.

3. leadership skills. a ALL rounded leader. compatability. and the ability to control, trust and influence.

4. let loose. i'm still so winded up by myself. time to decrease the reluctance level, the hesitation level, the pessimism level, and increase the DARING level!!!

i hope this would not be just another camp. i hope that i won't be doing the same things that i already know of. i hope that my heart will be big enough this time, it won't crush under all the pressure, stress, and negativities when the time comes.

til then.

ciao~

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

BO JIO

LOL. this is fun. the IIDYT rarely debates about something interesting. but when we do, the topic is BO JIO. ahahaha. come to think of it it's kinda funny. and a little childish. but whatever.

anyways. the thing is, the group has grown so big, asking everybody to attend to every event is actually becoming tougher. with timetable clashes, busy schedule, everyone is busy with their own world. Hence, there starts the 'Bo Jio' thing.

At first, a lot people just use it as a joke. Hey, Bo jio! and you would know that fellow, who totally does not intend to be jio-ed, is just being playful and teasing you. On the other hand, when it happens within the group, it means a different thing. it means blaming the person of lack of thoughts, for bo sim, for forgetting to include EVERYONE.

then, when the usage is mixed up, when people use it for just everything, Bo Jio just seems like another annoying word. lunch Bo jio. toilet Bo jio. buy books Bo jio. just when does the list ends @@ sometimes, the person whom the phrase ' bojio' is directed to, just gets tired of being blamed ALL the time. At that time, no one would care whether its teasing or real blaming. it has become overload. that person would just get very very annoyed, right?

is there really a NEED to jio for everything. sigh. why this habit le. just say that you want to join, it's simple enough. just say you are sad that we didn't ask u to the event ( if you are truly sad), simple enough too. since the trend of this 'Bo jio' started, only did this NEED for jio came about right? didn't we all do just fine before that.

since everyone has different definitions for ' Bo jio'. maybe just be aware how this two words would sound like to others. Often, the person who speaks the words does not realize the impact of it on others. it's a bit selfish. no? also, the 'receiver' could just ignore. but that just means the word has already became meaningless.

til then.

ciao~

Friday, March 8, 2013

new semester

hi all!! yes another semester has finally started. and yes, there's ends my 3-and-a-half months holidays. those who were jealous of my holidays can finally laugh at me now, my holidays are over, and here comes the twelve hellish week =/

anyways, no matter how sucky this semester would turn out, i would just bear in mind that its impossible for this semester to get any worse than the last one. ya, my last hellish-struggling-with-digitals-and-nader semester. These sem, i have THREE Chinese lecturers!! not that i'm racist or sth, the obvious difference compared to last semester is just hard to ignore. so ya, i'm happy with my lecturers this semester V^^ 

also, some how, maybe after going through such hellish semester last semester, this sem, i'm some what more prepared and not as panicky as before. or maybe its just that i've only gone through the first week? @@ hopefully the hopeful feeling won't just be an illusion but that i've really leveled up my tolerance skill.

besides studies, i'm having lots of extras. i'm giving more classes: seven-and-a-half-hours per week, its like having an extra subject on top of the four i'm having in uni. also, there's this ELP- Engineering Leadership Program thingy going on, if my application is successful, that is. and d2y has another couple of events going on, even though i declined the offer to head one of the projects, i've agreed to help out. PLUS i'm suppose to attend weekly mbs activities to support my friend.

gosh. still trying to fit EVERYTHING into my timetable. let's take a look at the math: 24 study hours in uni including lectures, lab work, and tutorials. 7& a half hour of teachings. from fatfish's analysis, i'm going to have WEEKLY lab work from all FOUR units. WEEKLY quizzes and MID-TERM test for THREE units. TWO units with lab tests. and one with mini project. all these require extra study hours and tedious preparations no doubt. what, u think its scary? try adding ELP and D2Y into the pile @@ 

if i would have any of the extra time left, it would be ALL for sleeping, and some for eating. gosh how to get a boyfriend like that? lol just kidding i' not desperate. anyways, it'll definitely eat up most of my social times. any gatherings?? put it after the end of june, people!!

til then.

ciao.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

情人

哇,这可是我踏入二十一岁后的第一大考验,写情人节感想。都没有情人,哪来的感想?如果你有仔细读我的部落格,就知道我平日极少碰过这一题材。@@

二十一年来,我的爱情经验可说是零。这也不那么奇怪,认识我的人煞看我一下都知道我是单身女子。所以。。。这代表我哪里出了什么问题吗?不知道 。

来来,分析一下。自从中学以来,喜欢人,被喜欢,也是有过的。怎么就没一单成事?这么多年以后,我当然有自己仔细检讨检讨。首先,是我乖女的性格?不怕告诉你,我念中三时,还是深信被家里洗脑的那种概念----念书还是不要谈情说爱的好。成日捧着书过日子,与感情有关的事物,有多远离多远。中四以后,稍微明白拍拖不是全部不好,心窗就打开了那么一点点。好不容易才学会与男生沟通。就这样,什么时机都比别人慢了一拍。

然后呢?不说别人对我的感觉,我自己的,很多时候都没能很坚持下去。可能是没有真正进一步的了解别人,可能只是那份好感没那么强烈。少了积极,哪来的下一步进展。有时候想想是不是单身太自由太自在,根本没认真放心思去感受另一个人。或者纯粹是对的人始终没出现。又或者我的心从头到尾还是封闭的。

全部吧。我本来就不是一个普通的女生。近年来,那个他仍没出现,我用了这时间加于充实和补充自己。不知道二十一岁的我究竟进步或改变了多少。不知道我"准备"好了吗。只比以前自在了一些,继续相信,会来的,是我的,就会来。

相比我二位好友,我文笔没那么好,感想也没那么透测,但是,这也是我的肺腑之言。多亏有了他们,我今天才认真想想与分享我的这一段。

心,再多一点点,就好。

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

不一样的新年

首先,恭祝诸位读者蛇年行大运、身体安康、万事称心如意、有情人终成眷属、友人家人能够团聚,千里共婵娟。

不知道是不是因为终于成年了,今年,终于能够体会到一家人回家过年的可贵。看着满头白发的伯伯、阿姨,可以想像他们所经过的岁月沧桑;仔细听听他们的故事,仿佛见到他们当初像我们一样,为未来奋斗、向往、有梦想。才发现,那所谓的"大人话", 我们已经会听了。

所谓的成家立业, 更是很奥妙的。这个人,因为这个家庭环境长大,性格才能适合那么的那个人。这个人,遇到了那个人,成了家,大家有缘才能做亲戚。看到了伯伯和堂哥姐们的相同之处,就好像我们三姐妹,谈吐举止,pattern也离不开爸爸的方式。可能也就是这种pattern,才让我们认识今天的周围朋友,成为建立我们的性格的基本。到头来,全部归属为一个字----缘。

今年的过年方式,有点不一样。一群老友在朋友家里过了一个晚上。没什么,就谈一些陈年往事,到凌晨五时!什么时候真的变成了老人家?这还不止,我还生平第一次还爬上了屋顶,与挚友们观看了星空。能与你一同爬屋顶的朋友,就是有那么的不一样。屋顶上,对着云朵许个愿,会不会特别灵?

不只是动物园的朋友们,还见见了华乐的同学们、小学旧同窗。以前不熟的,变得熟了一点点;以前很熟的,也更上一层楼!大家都变得了有点不一样,都是大人了。有些有了梦想,要追求事业上、学业上、心灵上的目标。更发现一个两个比以前很注意了健康。大家不再喝汽水、包装水,只喝白开水。点餐时多点了蔬菜。也多谈起了运动。这个改变,只能更证明我们都长大、懂得自惜自爱了。

缘啊缘,多么的奥妙,捉拿不住。什么时候能遇见有情人?呵呵。拭目以待吧 =p

Friday, February 8, 2013

TRIP.

FINALLY. after four years since graduation, we, the zoo, have our first ever trip with Crystal Song! HAHA! ya, indeed, she's the main character in this trip! =D
 
anyways, after this trip, or may I say, during the trip, I have quite a lot flash backs. took me all the back to form one, the first day of high school etc. and so it kinda awes me how very SAME everyone is. even after so many years. yes, there are a lot of changes and differences in almost everything since then. but, though how space and time changed us, the core in us did not at all change, right? this was verified during the trip.
果然, 本性难移。
 
how so? let's see: my dear crystal song is still so noisy and do not stop babbling about everything! and her fingers is still cold as ever. ah ning is still ah ning being fearless and quick witted and outspoken in everything. and even though we didn't talk to each other much for the past year, both of them still gets me so easily and quickly! i only need minimal explanation to get a message through. ahahaha I'm so happy when people understands my talking pattern. it's like they're accustomed to my way of speech and expression V^^
 
mr. yap jian shen is still acting so philosophical about everything! not to mention the habit of sleeping as the first thing he does whenever or wherever he settles down. and hock eu never changes and still acts like hock eu to the very last bit by introducing us the game of 24 and dixit. IQ games to train our brains to the maximum during the mid night, no less.
 
dear Yi Shiuan is so cordial!! offering us a stay and helping to research the places for yummy sate celup. ahahaha and we did have fun cleaning up the cicak-droppings in your dad/mum's house (I forgot) at aloh gajah, though most of us just help out by standing on chairs in order to get out of yi shiuan's and zan hong's way of doing the actual cleaning. and, the house is actually just the perfect place for pillow talks and lame games. the quiet area was also suited for crystal to act like emma watson in the perk's of a wallflower by climbing through the roof of zan hong's harrier while he's driving. zan hong was kind enough to drive a few more rounds around the housing area just so crystal can enjoy more star gazing through the roof. ahaha.
 
not to forget the drivers!! zan hong. nice knowing you! before this i just register you as a scout-frisbee-aussie-crystal's-friend-guy. now, a little more, i guess. haha. and cheng foong. nice meeting you! nice job trying to cover up the little dirt on the floor with your even more dirty foot. you did a GREAT job cleaning up the house. AHAHAHA.
and there's me. i wonder if i stayed the same too. no doubt i wasn't the exact same person i was years ago. i don't even exactly know how i've changed. but, any how, not too bad i guess. since i didn't end up in prison or drugs or something bad. lol. nothing major has changed, really.
 
if there was anything unfavorable throughout the trip, it would be the rain. it was raining non stop for most of the day in malacca. i noticed we were carrying umbrellas in most of the photos. on the day back, it rained too. also, there's my face. pimples and scars all over. sigh. also, the time spent together was still too little. nevertheless, we had LOADS of fun, and bonding, and relaxation, and just being grateful for each of the people to be at the trip. it's a blast. and I do look forward for more to come =D
 
by the way, it's malacca that we went. sorry for not mentioning. but It's quite obvious in the photos anyways. =p sorry for being not eager at all to post about the places or the foods. it's my third time going to malacca in less than a year after all @@ but, in short, here's the food list: RTcakebread-babanyonyalaksa-cendol-coffee-nadeje-chickenriceball-satecelup-wantanmee-panmee. not too much. hee.

quick peek?








should have brought dslr. enough said =/

til then.
 
ciao.