taking a break

so many things had happened in this one and a half years. it's almost like a live tv drama show. is it because that things have become more dramatic as we grow up? or just I'm too blur to notice anything around me in the past. anyways. I'm seeing people facing all sort of shits in their everyday life. this semester especially =( everybody ain't happy huh? sigh. why so eh? is it because of engineering?  sometimes all the stress is just too much for anyone to take. I pray for your happiness, people. bless u. may everyone recover from their sadness and move on with a happier life, okay?

moving on to the next junction. let's see if I can stand alone. and then meet someone new on the following path.

holidays are finally here. time to meet up with my dear OLD pals from places beyond monash =D

when things get lifeless, do you not just start flipping through old photo albums? just to remind yourself of the other things that matter in your world. I do that. and often find peace and strength amid the old pictures and smiley faces =) photos may just hold more meaning than it seemed at that time. it freezes time. it's... sorta magic, don't you think?

seriously, I realize pictures, words and music, accomplish wayyyy more than equations and codes -.-

til then.

chaoz~

Uni Life

*Blink* and one and a half years has gone by. just like that. I'm already half year through my second year in Monash as an Engineering student. Just like that, I'm two and a half years away from being graduated, to step out from the student life, to the BIG WORLD. 

fast eh? freaking. fast. so fast that it scares me, a little. hrm. one and a half years ago. doesn't seemed that long ago. yet, I think I've become almost completely different since then? not? thanks to the abundant nerds around me, I think I blended into the circle pretty well, like finally =x. there's discontentment here and there, a lil regrets, but thankfully not too much and not too late =D  

ya, this sem actually suck quite bad. its BAD. my studies are bad. I'm bad with the people from my batch. and I'm bad with keeping my head cool. a small confession here. I actually broke down during the last week of the semester. ugh. quite a failure. so ya, I'm already looking forward to the next semester, where I can show myself that I can enjoy Year 2 as well, blend in with new people, and NOT screw my studies. and thx god I'm not going for exchange next sem. I'm just not ready, yet. 

anyways. uni life IS my life, for this past one and a half year. no, I'm not just a lifeless nerd. uni life IS life and IS enjoyable, even though nerding is a BIG part of it. yes, NERDS CAN HAVE FUN TOO. 

let's take a stroll down the memory lane. shall we? don't be surprised with the amount of photos I have =p 

first. these are the awesome people that make my uni life lively. the If I Die Young Taipingsssss =D 

Our first group photo we took last semester

Our second photo session. new member: Jason! =D

if i die young malacca trip!!

the fateful camp where jason joins us =D

Let's go through them one by one. no worries. i have all your individual shots. =p

jamie!! the chili padi. the family-loving-music-lover-cute-shy-girl-friend =D

 our very first photos. at carl's junior and on the way to indah water =D

 i realize we have quite a number of couple photos!! yay! V^^ and elaine.

 i finally have sit-at-the-back-of-lecture-hall-girl-friends now!!so cool!! quoted from 2011 august post. that was how i described meeting jamie and elaine. ahaha =D

next we have...tadaaah. blondie aka gam mou aka lala. see the dai lou eating chicken wing!! lol.

 

and dai lou yawning and acting cute. ahahaha. he's gonna kill me seeing this =p btw, quoted from 2011 september: the 2 scammers. one Abu Bakar from the forest and one lead singer from if-i-die-young-taiping-band. they are... PRO like hell. the two backgrounds i mentioned are those i've actually believe in for weeks. sadly. LOL now i realize how true that statement was. scammer!!

 and when blondie meets chilli padi, we have this very cute scene. awww ~~~

and then we have this. IIDYT's stress ball. very effective (proven) but with one side effect: he spreads laziness. and tadahhhh its our very own fat fish =D

 yes yes. as you can see he is extremely nice to cuddle with and is guy's favorite pillow and gay partner =D moving on, we have the sleeping beauty: melvin.

 yesh the hip hop cap is to make napping even more convenient at any places and time.

 and this one dates back to iCHEMe. sleeping in the library some time during duty =D

also, our driver/photographer. dialogue: don't you look down at me!! >=D

next, benny.

when the two bananas meet, we can hear hourssss and endlessss talk of android/jellybean/transformer/tablet/anti-apple/techno/some-alien-language-which-i-would-never-get. lol.

 next our new member jason!! =D

 somehow he looks very blur case in photos. the last one is blur-looking Ash from pokemon!! ahahaha!!

last but not least. kpe =D hi, neighbour!

 remember we spent daysss building this freaking mini-theme-park-looking-thingy???

 so rare to get a group picture with kpe in it. this photo worth millions =p

 and she went Malacca with us =D

  

awesome people, right? =D ya, i'm blessed. and i'm grateful for that. after one and a half years, we've been through a considerable amount of thick and thin. lauging, fighting, crying, and lots of sharing. i could proudly say that we are close. =D

 we have fun together.

 

 sometimes, we get a little crazy.

 sometimes, we get a little vain =p

 sometimes, we just don't make sense.

we fight. occasionally. (in a toy store)

we work extremely hard together to excel in our courses.

 we get tired at times.

but, rain or shine. 

we're there for each other =D

okay. that's kinda lame. but i'm keeping it there. so bear with me thank you =D

next semester. the group is gonna split up EVEN more =/ first, chze hou is flying off to Aussie, for an exchange. next, I won't have any common electives with the rest of the people =( ya, imma gonna be a FULL electrical major engineering student next semester. sigh. I'm....prepared. not like this sem, I will adapt to the differences and embrace the changes. not that i will not hang out with you guys anymore, i just have to be used to not having you guys around me that often. ya, adapting to it from NOW onwards =\  

it's not a dead end. there's more to come and more to grow. I believe =D 

two and a half years to upgrade myself. lol. 

himnae. aza aza hwaitingggg!!! 

til then. 

chaoz~

half way there

hi!! I'm back. And guess what? things are going pretty well again =D first, half the exam is gone!!! and the two papers left is Maths and circuits. both which I'm better with. and who cares, DIGITALS IS FREAKING OVER MAN!!! gosh, I couldn't be happier. the stress and the frustration and the pressure. ergh. 

also, my 3 months break are drawing near!!! ahaha!! I have so much to look forward to! no, I'm not rich and I'm not traveling to anywhere awesome, I'm just looking forward to all the dramas I could follow ( what? an engineering student don't normally get time off to watch any dramas during school days k? =p) and the meeting ups. the meeting ups!!! friends are coming back from Aussie and taiwan. also, time to meet the locals. everybody is so busy with studies even locals can't meet up from time to time.  

also, there's the camp thing. maybe more commitment? no idea. I'm just gonna sell it to my sis no matter what =p also, there's all the books in the world I want to read but haven't got to do so. reading is suppose to be my hobby!! and I think I haven't read anything for almost a year-.- also, imma coming up with some inspirations again! =D time to put all the materials I've gathered and bought to some actual use eh? time to get in touch with my 'artistic' side. if there's still anything left in there, after the fact that my brain got constantly washed over by numbers and codes and formulae for the past 9 months? 

also, job? maybe part time? office/sales/interns/service don't appeal much to me =\ but almost at the right timing, I got a new student! who wants intensive classes. ehehehe teaching still suites me best after all these years. I could trace it back to when I was at form 2, when I first take over my mum's classes. guess its been growing on me since then, as if it's in my blood =D been considering to be a lecturer in the future, especially more after I see how some of the monash lecturers SUCK big time.  

also, shopping. I need new jeans, sandals, heels, clothes, LAP TOP, sweater blah blah blah. it's the end of the year and it's shopping time!! and yes, I finally NEED a lap top. to do assignments. not that my iPad is not good enough. it's because monash com labs SUCK BIG TIME too. so much trouble i had to go through to perform one simple task. ugh.  

yea I've made a looooong MUST do list. been so excited over it I can't really study. so, here I am, clearing my mind, so that I can return to my studies once again full-heartedly =D 

two more papers to go!! imma gonna ACE it to make up for the other two that I've screwed -.- 

p/s: another post coming right up! stay tuned =p 

til then. 

chaoz~

天地之大

很多事情，看了又看，原来始终不是自己想象、以为、认为、相信的。所以，要再看多一点，肚量放大一点，心放开一点。 

感谢一直以来围绕着我的善良们。今后，恐怕不再。不再是小孩子的世界。 

要懂得人之道。要懂，这两面刀、双面人的世界。小心吧。也相信吧。认为值得的，就做吧。 

天地之大，不可能没有能容我之处？ 

心。再多一点点就好。 

some how. when things go wrong, I just wanna revert back to my mango world. =S 

himnae. 

til then. 

chaoz~

觉悟书。

来写篇久违的华文吧。是时候觉悟了。最近的功课都给我搞个乱七八糟了。又或者是抄个乱七八糟-.- 惨！真是有够惨的。 

到底在想什么？读这个大学又不是很便宜。可是大口大口地花老爸的钱来的。竟然还敢三心两意？竟然还敢把书乱念一通。过意的去吗？ 

电子。不是我乱选的。是考虑又考虑才选的。适合我，才选的。因为我可以，才选的。竟然给一个电脑语言吓到了？还想成为优良学生的说-.- 

高二，以为很轻松？觉悟了才会来读吧！一定要全心全意，下苦功，发奋去念，才念得成的。你以为？？ 

哎。这个学期，没尽全力，是真的。想了多余的事，想着太多的玩，分心了。完全分心了。 

觉悟吧！路走到一半，因为辛苦了不代表要放弃。因为周围变了不代表要走回头。坚持到底，抱着希望。会来，会成的，会自己来。 

妈咪啊。想你了。

changes

breathe in. breathe out. breathe in. breathe out. and YES i WILL survive DIGITALSSSSS. roar.

not just digitals. the whole electrical thing is evolving so fast i am starting to freak out. a glimpse at some seniors report/coding/conversation. Year 3 electives. I don't even know what is what. Internship. Assignments. I'm so used to copying already i feel more and more stupid O.O EVERYTHING is freaking me out.

also, Year two is a sem with MUCH changes. almost the whole circle of people from my usual uni life has changed. I'm now often surrounded with SMART NERDY PRO SENIORS. and the rest of the electrical guys. and as the sem moves on, imma gonna have to blend right into that circle. O.O

oh yes. there are changes. and yes, things aren't the same. and yes, i'm freaking out A LOT. imma gonna survive. sigh.

another few things i found about myself. i'm not that capable. yet. and, my facade sucks like a shit's shit. STILL. ergh. imma too easy to read. and that's never a good thing.

aza aza hwaitinggg!! himnae!!!

til then.

chaoz~

frustration

recently, I'm living in this very high stress level. why so? no one to blame but myself. I'm finally suffering from all my slacking-ness, on-ness, lecture-skipping-ness and chill-ness. OOPS. shit. freakinggggg shit. I'm really quite worried for my finals. aaaaaaaaa.

that aside, something weird is going on between me and the group. I have no idea how did it come about, but yea, I think someone hates me. sigh. bye bye contented feeling. on the comforting side, I think the rest of my world is still loving me all the same, so, I'm still fine. 

The last two weeks of the semester, I'm all stressed up, restless, high pressured, tensed, worried, frustrated, pek chek, maybe a little hysterical, even. No, i won't just break down, yet. Barney Stinson said,"if you're sad, stop being sad and be awesome instead." so, i guess i'll have to be really really really awesome, if you know what i mean.  

thankful for the upcoming gatherings with the zoo, and hopefully pmo this week. times like this, i need a REAL break from the uni life @@ All the stress is NOT healthy for my mental state at all. =/

ROARRRR and the almighty ultimate nerd is ready to go!! this time, i really DO hope that i'm the ultimate nerd. arghhh. 

may everything be smooth and fine as we rush towards the finishing line of the semester. 

hwaitinggg. 

times like this, we need

stress ball!!!!!!!!

til then. 

chaoz~