science centre
klcc and kl tower.
this holiday.being out more than staying in. shopping, gathering, movies, and visits..its a pleasant holiday=]
more later. chaoz~
Monday, December 27, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
the start of the end.
holidays. always love them and can never get enough of them. nah.i don't get expensive trips oversea to see the world..nor spend every day outside the house shopping and playing..i actually very much enjoy the peace at home, reading harry potter over and over again, up to a measure, that is.
hey. don't get the wrong idea. i have painstakingly plan my whole holiday ahead. i do have a plan okay. not just harry potter. well, first, i'm going to really really try hard to catch up on alllll the syllabus for further maths. 'cous, mind you, its extremely difficult and i'm going to reconsider my option of taking the whole subject seriously. a visit to monash scare me actually. when i actually face all the robotic stuff and devices, i had a slight panic. it all look so boyish and complicated and mental, not to mention extremely tough. i'm terrified and am going to work my butts off to achieve full As. just for the 20 percent tuition waiver at monash. not to mention finding any other possible scholarships.
and. art work of course. god knows how much i've neglected my artistic soul until it had almost left me completely since i've been spending time doing further maths as a hobby. not that its actually a hobby, but its definitely stuff that i have time to do during my free time, which make it my hobby, like it or not. haih. anyway, the point is i've bought all the ingredients needed to make more handcrafts. but. well. no where near opening the packets until now. haih.
and. art of cooking. finally i'm making slight progress in that. and on one particular day, i've an urge to wanting to make 'mua chi' - the soft sticky white 'kuih' with groundnut crumbs covering its surface. sound so tasty right??so i asked my auntie may to teach me to make it. but. i was apalled when all my kakak got out from a drawer is a packet of pulut flour. den she mix with water. and water only. i'm suprised it doesn't need oil or egg or butter or anything.
lol. then she boil them in hot water. that's it. flour n water. then she cut them into small cube and put them in the groundnut crumbs. the end. the mua chi is done.
oh my. i have no idea cute and tasty little mua chi is so damn easy to make. and to my utter bewildment, my auntie may use the same dough to make small little balls, and throw the into pandan and ginger soup. and tadaaaa, rice ball soup is done. i have no idea rice ball soup and mua chi is the exact same thing!!and quite disappointed with the mixing flour and water lesson.==
anyway. it feels so wrong to have food purely made from flour and water and nothing else.haha. its like hardly food. both sis said i'm not making any sense. and when i said i'm not having mua chi ever again they think i'm out of my mind. lol. oh well..
oh. and driving. haih. who's there got a P license for 10 months and can't yet drive?i bet only me..haha..another homework for me this holiday. nothing much for this holiday except a couple of wedding dinner, some teaching , some visits, some gatherings and a camp. yep. gonna enjoy my precious peacefulness this holiday.
til then .
chaoz~~
hey. don't get the wrong idea. i have painstakingly plan my whole holiday ahead. i do have a plan okay. not just harry potter. well, first, i'm going to really really try hard to catch up on alllll the syllabus for further maths. 'cous, mind you, its extremely difficult and i'm going to reconsider my option of taking the whole subject seriously. a visit to monash scare me actually. when i actually face all the robotic stuff and devices, i had a slight panic. it all look so boyish and complicated and mental, not to mention extremely tough. i'm terrified and am going to work my butts off to achieve full As. just for the 20 percent tuition waiver at monash. not to mention finding any other possible scholarships.
and. art work of course. god knows how much i've neglected my artistic soul until it had almost left me completely since i've been spending time doing further maths as a hobby. not that its actually a hobby, but its definitely stuff that i have time to do during my free time, which make it my hobby, like it or not. haih. anyway, the point is i've bought all the ingredients needed to make more handcrafts. but. well. no where near opening the packets until now. haih.
and. art of cooking. finally i'm making slight progress in that. and on one particular day, i've an urge to wanting to make 'mua chi' - the soft sticky white 'kuih' with groundnut crumbs covering its surface. sound so tasty right??so i asked my auntie may to teach me to make it. but. i was apalled when all my kakak got out from a drawer is a packet of pulut flour. den she mix with water. and water only. i'm suprised it doesn't need oil or egg or butter or anything.
lol. then she boil them in hot water. that's it. flour n water. then she cut them into small cube and put them in the groundnut crumbs. the end. the mua chi is done.
oh my. i have no idea cute and tasty little mua chi is so damn easy to make. and to my utter bewildment, my auntie may use the same dough to make small little balls, and throw the into pandan and ginger soup. and tadaaaa, rice ball soup is done. i have no idea rice ball soup and mua chi is the exact same thing!!and quite disappointed with the mixing flour and water lesson.==
anyway. it feels so wrong to have food purely made from flour and water and nothing else.haha. its like hardly food. both sis said i'm not making any sense. and when i said i'm not having mua chi ever again they think i'm out of my mind. lol. oh well..
oh. and driving. haih. who's there got a P license for 10 months and can't yet drive?i bet only me..haha..another homework for me this holiday. nothing much for this holiday except a couple of wedding dinner, some teaching , some visits, some gatherings and a camp. yep. gonna enjoy my precious peacefulness this holiday.
til then .
chaoz~~
Monday, December 6, 2010
DISAPPEARED...
okay. so this one year is almost drawing to an end. and this one year, it seems so fast, that everything seems to be a blurr..Age 18, first year into adulthood. everything yet so new, yet so fun, college freedom awaits me, a culture that i never step into before..trying to get out, trying to fit in, trying to excel...
a whole year struggle. seemed to have achieve something, teaching at a tuition centre, earning my own pocket money, meeting new people, eating expensive food, getting out, getting home late, staying out, eating out, traveling alone, decision making, planning, self studying...or so it seemed..it the mist of it, some how felt I'm getting further from what I've wanted to achieve. what i wanted to be seemed did not give me the satisfaction i want..some how i just felt i was drifting away, far far away..
hmmm. year of 18. not the best year i have. seem to have spent too much time thinking, spent too much time worrying, spent too much time wandering.....of course, its undeniable the year which I've grew up most. I've grown so fast that i could not really catch up with my own change of mind, realisation of principles, meanings in life. sometimes what i realised seem to amaze myself, something mature that i only hope some adult would teach me so much much earlier..brought up by single parentage really does make a difference some how..
its a lonely journey. this 1 year. lonelier than I've ever felt. everything changed too fast and when i hurry to flow along and catch up with it, i left my true self behind. note that I've been the quiet girl where ever i go this year?I thought I've cured that finally after 3 years in secondary.
this 1 year, when holiday approaches, i have no feelings for whom or what so ever. no ones need second telling bout the contrast of last year's emotions when the same year end holiday approaches.
so, I've finally blog again. its like realisation finally hit, or maybe another year's end gave me yet another hope. so when next year comes again, I'll be ready, and again anticipating to face another 365 days all over again. and of course, this inspiration to blog also came from a friend, when i revised my inbox. this though, will remain as a secret. hee!!i can't believe how much I've missed out this year. friends. family. I'll on msn more from now on i think=]
the good thing is, when you've disappeared, you'll start to resurface again=] (sounds ridiculous i know, but the point i want to make is definitely there!) tonight, i feel happy to be honest with my blog and readers, it is ALWAYS nice to share some pleasant thoughts=] )
til then.
chaoz~
a whole year struggle. seemed to have achieve something, teaching at a tuition centre, earning my own pocket money, meeting new people, eating expensive food, getting out, getting home late, staying out, eating out, traveling alone, decision making, planning, self studying...or so it seemed..it the mist of it, some how felt I'm getting further from what I've wanted to achieve. what i wanted to be seemed did not give me the satisfaction i want..some how i just felt i was drifting away, far far away..
hmmm. year of 18. not the best year i have. seem to have spent too much time thinking, spent too much time worrying, spent too much time wandering.....of course, its undeniable the year which I've grew up most. I've grown so fast that i could not really catch up with my own change of mind, realisation of principles, meanings in life. sometimes what i realised seem to amaze myself, something mature that i only hope some adult would teach me so much much earlier..brought up by single parentage really does make a difference some how..
its a lonely journey. this 1 year. lonelier than I've ever felt. everything changed too fast and when i hurry to flow along and catch up with it, i left my true self behind. note that I've been the quiet girl where ever i go this year?I thought I've cured that finally after 3 years in secondary.
this 1 year, when holiday approaches, i have no feelings for whom or what so ever. no ones need second telling bout the contrast of last year's emotions when the same year end holiday approaches.
so, I've finally blog again. its like realisation finally hit, or maybe another year's end gave me yet another hope. so when next year comes again, I'll be ready, and again anticipating to face another 365 days all over again. and of course, this inspiration to blog also came from a friend, when i revised my inbox. this though, will remain as a secret. hee!!i can't believe how much I've missed out this year. friends. family. I'll on msn more from now on i think=]
the good thing is, when you've disappeared, you'll start to resurface again=] (sounds ridiculous i know, but the point i want to make is definitely there!) tonight, i feel happy to be honest with my blog and readers, it is ALWAYS nice to share some pleasant thoughts=] )
til then.
chaoz~
Friday, December 3, 2010
fairy tale
oh my..i just watched a fairy tale recently. and guess what?its inspiring!!lol.
yep. perfect fairytale. i forgot how much i love fairytales. so simple yet nice. what a life. haha..it reminds me of many pleasant things that could be found in daily life. and how we could simplify our lives, simplify our thoughts, and do things straight to our hearts. great right?perspective of life, that's simply what'll make our lives, maybe not a fairy tale, but certainly happy and fulfilled=]
lesson 2: watch cartoon once in a while..
off i go to melacca=]
til then.
chaoz~
yep. perfect fairytale. i forgot how much i love fairytales. so simple yet nice. what a life. haha..it reminds me of many pleasant things that could be found in daily life. and how we could simplify our lives, simplify our thoughts, and do things straight to our hearts. great right?perspective of life, that's simply what'll make our lives, maybe not a fairy tale, but certainly happy and fulfilled=]
lesson 2: watch cartoon once in a while..
off i go to melacca=]
til then.
chaoz~
NEW post
yep. new post..just like you've been waiting for. cut the crap, i don't wanna apologize for not blogging..hee..coz once again i distrust blog.
ok.life recently.man, do i ever hate a college that much???stupid inti. STUPID INTI. the a levels system is like shit. okay. after AS exams, many classes don't carry on anymore. so what inti do about it??nth. they leave big gaps in the timetable. as if the timetable doesn't suck enough. like today, friday. i have maths at 8-9, then BREAK 2 HOURS. chem at 11-12, phy at 12-1. , then BREAK 2 HOURS, the maths again at 3-4. shit right??what am i suppose to do in 4 hours break??can't they work already, the whole a levels department to simply shift the classes earlier. for thursday, class at 2-4. lol. what the heck. so freaking much inconvenience caused, and i haven't gone through all the other days, which is just as annoying.
okay. timetable aside, lessons. i don't have to repeat to anyone how i dislike the chem lecturer. first timer at a levels?doesn't mean he can even get the chem facts wrong right. nevermind, i'm on my own studying since i ever step in here. as for maths, hello???its common sense people who take sciences take paper 4 for A2 exam, mechanics 1. and now INTI force everyone to take paper 7, statistics2, lessons.not even letting us choose or letting us know how they force us in the statistics class.which is stupid. when i ask them about whether they can have a mechanics class, they said no, coz its too much trouble splitting class and arranging lessons to conduct another subject. LOL. so what is it they are working for?if everything is trouble for them , and they are to just ignore it. ignore timetable, ignore lessons. just shut down the whole a levels already if you can't manage it. so now every maths lesson is statistics lesson=.= so what this means??another self study subject. thxs for ur help.
ok. so lesson number 1??attention to allllllll secondary school graduates, if u wanna choose a levels, don't choose INTI. choose sunway,tayloys,methodist or any otherwhere. if you don't want it to screw ur future chances or career, that is.
til then.
chaoz~~
ok.life recently.man, do i ever hate a college that much???stupid inti. STUPID INTI. the a levels system is like shit. okay. after AS exams, many classes don't carry on anymore. so what inti do about it??nth. they leave big gaps in the timetable. as if the timetable doesn't suck enough. like today, friday. i have maths at 8-9, then BREAK 2 HOURS. chem at 11-12, phy at 12-1. , then BREAK 2 HOURS, the maths again at 3-4. shit right??what am i suppose to do in 4 hours break??can't they work already, the whole a levels department to simply shift the classes earlier. for thursday, class at 2-4. lol. what the heck. so freaking much inconvenience caused, and i haven't gone through all the other days, which is just as annoying.
okay. timetable aside, lessons. i don't have to repeat to anyone how i dislike the chem lecturer. first timer at a levels?doesn't mean he can even get the chem facts wrong right. nevermind, i'm on my own studying since i ever step in here. as for maths, hello???its common sense people who take sciences take paper 4 for A2 exam, mechanics 1. and now INTI force everyone to take paper 7, statistics2, lessons.not even letting us choose or letting us know how they force us in the statistics class.which is stupid. when i ask them about whether they can have a mechanics class, they said no, coz its too much trouble splitting class and arranging lessons to conduct another subject. LOL. so what is it they are working for?if everything is trouble for them , and they are to just ignore it. ignore timetable, ignore lessons. just shut down the whole a levels already if you can't manage it. so now every maths lesson is statistics lesson=.= so what this means??another self study subject. thxs for ur help.
ok. so lesson number 1??attention to allllllll secondary school graduates, if u wanna choose a levels, don't choose INTI. choose sunway,tayloys,methodist or any otherwhere. if you don't want it to screw ur future chances or career, that is.
til then.
chaoz~~
Saturday, October 16, 2010
over react
one thing i can't control is over reacting. not that i don't want to control, but its like automatic. and i hate it.
i know some problems i faced were small matters, tiny tiny matters just enough to make any other people make a face and forget about it, some of the problems are not even MY problems. But, i ALWAYS over react. As though they were super big matters, like the sky is falling down or something. Its like i couldn't just bottle up all my opinions or feelings on that case. I have to pour every last drop of it out until i really have had enough complains about it. If its my problems, even worse. i wouldn't want to share it, but still, it pours out little by little, like it is being forced through a bottle cap..
And the thing i can't comprehend is where the heck did i get the influence of this 'over-reactingness'??My elder sister is the calmest people i've ever seen in solving probles like this, rationally catogarizing each case as important or not. my lil sis is the ' i don't care' or 'don't care la' type, who also always dismisses my problems by saying' its nothing de larh...' So, why myself is having this problem??if i could recognise it, wanting to handle with it, how come it still exists. i didn't care much about it in high school. but after entering college i tried to handle with this problem, and i see myself being more patient (much more) with things, and not over reacting over petty things already. i could handle stuffs well, organise, plan, solve people's problems, deal with people as calmly as possible, and more, i could also catogarize things which really matter, or does not. Yet still.
what's the big deal?not important de larh..so what??don't care la..like i care??whatever...talks that i couldn't or have yet to walk.
I'm always finding a pail. Anyone anywhere. Each period or year there's a different person. Just so i can repeat my problems that are running through my brain. Just repeating it would make me feel better. But i doubt it makes any other feels better. Or next time i'll just find myself a recorder. pathetic.
Hmm. At this instant, i got a slight idea of where all of these are coming from. Should be from my 'blueness'. You know, the logical, analithical, working solo character. Yep, i just think too much. Its just no way i could switch off my mind. And i experienced that LITERALLY in that stupid sleepless night. Not because of thinking that i couldn't sleep.Its because of my sleeplessness that i have to keep thinking until 4am in the morning=.= Whoa. Is that tiring. Any random stuff: from stact club, to emcee, to souvenir, to opening ceremony, to pekan nanas, to thinking skills, to what to wear for wedding dinner, to what time i take bus, to what i wear tomorrow morning, to why i still can't just sleep, just drop dead also will do (touch wood), to why i keep thinking, to why i keep thinking bout why i keep thinking, to guys, to girls, to hamsters... and then repeat the WHOLE cycle. Well, you get the idea. haih.
a quote from some dhamma book: accept what u could or couldn't do.
oh well. haven't see open. mean while, 'enjoy' the restlessness. haha. just human.
til then.
chaoz~
i know some problems i faced were small matters, tiny tiny matters just enough to make any other people make a face and forget about it, some of the problems are not even MY problems. But, i ALWAYS over react. As though they were super big matters, like the sky is falling down or something. Its like i couldn't just bottle up all my opinions or feelings on that case. I have to pour every last drop of it out until i really have had enough complains about it. If its my problems, even worse. i wouldn't want to share it, but still, it pours out little by little, like it is being forced through a bottle cap..
And the thing i can't comprehend is where the heck did i get the influence of this 'over-reactingness'??My elder sister is the calmest people i've ever seen in solving probles like this, rationally catogarizing each case as important or not. my lil sis is the ' i don't care' or 'don't care la' type, who also always dismisses my problems by saying' its nothing de larh...' So, why myself is having this problem??if i could recognise it, wanting to handle with it, how come it still exists. i didn't care much about it in high school. but after entering college i tried to handle with this problem, and i see myself being more patient (much more) with things, and not over reacting over petty things already. i could handle stuffs well, organise, plan, solve people's problems, deal with people as calmly as possible, and more, i could also catogarize things which really matter, or does not. Yet still.
what's the big deal?not important de larh..so what??don't care la..like i care??whatever...talks that i couldn't or have yet to walk.
I'm always finding a pail. Anyone anywhere. Each period or year there's a different person. Just so i can repeat my problems that are running through my brain. Just repeating it would make me feel better. But i doubt it makes any other feels better. Or next time i'll just find myself a recorder. pathetic.
Hmm. At this instant, i got a slight idea of where all of these are coming from. Should be from my 'blueness'. You know, the logical, analithical, working solo character. Yep, i just think too much. Its just no way i could switch off my mind. And i experienced that LITERALLY in that stupid sleepless night. Not because of thinking that i couldn't sleep.Its because of my sleeplessness that i have to keep thinking until 4am in the morning=.= Whoa. Is that tiring. Any random stuff: from stact club, to emcee, to souvenir, to opening ceremony, to pekan nanas, to thinking skills, to what to wear for wedding dinner, to what time i take bus, to what i wear tomorrow morning, to why i still can't just sleep, just drop dead also will do (touch wood), to why i keep thinking, to why i keep thinking bout why i keep thinking, to guys, to girls, to hamsters... and then repeat the WHOLE cycle. Well, you get the idea. haih.
a quote from some dhamma book: accept what u could or couldn't do.
oh well. haven't see open. mean while, 'enjoy' the restlessness. haha. just human.
til then.
chaoz~
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
the final moment....
hah. dramatic post heading..just to give myself the mood that AS exam is in one week's time T.T and my new blog heading!!nice??hee..
okay. i've caught myself in the situation that i'll have AS exam and charity carnival and johor-3-day-2-night wedding trip all in this coming few weeks. brave me. and i'm not that free. nor that prepared for exam. aikssss. slacked this few days!!!no.......aiks. and AS exam is no joke. its not very hard. but not easy to score. what about the practical testssss??scary!!!and if i want to survive A2. this is the time i dig myself a well first. or prepare myself an umbrella. something like that. haha.
ok. so many things to do. what to wear to the wedding dinner??haha. what to give??and have to find all people i need in my ceremony. asap. argh. so that i can go for my AS exam in peace..and the VIP's souvenior. and yat lei's picture. and my further maths??can't afford to abandon it for another month again.
argh. motivation!!!i've wasted 2 days of this week already. i know i'm able to do all of these if i get into the mode NOW. shit you, facebook, why am i always fb-ing nowadays??this is the critical moment already. either i'll wasted my effort for the whole year, or i'm able to hit all my aims in one shot. NOW is the critical moment, because if i start any later, it'll be too late to get back on track already. and i dare suggested to go for karaeoke this week in class today..oh my, i'm so outta my mind!! no more time!!time to focus!!
now only i begin to feel anxious. right after i received call from Esther that inti idol would like to perform for us. its an incredibly good news for me and but then only i start to picture the events for the carnival. THEN only i really realise there is soooo much to do. GREAT. smart me.
going for shopping now T.T
plssss let me survive this.pls oh pls oh plsssss....
good luck people. good luck MAS 1.
chaoz~
okay. i've caught myself in the situation that i'll have AS exam and charity carnival and johor-3-day-2-night wedding trip all in this coming few weeks. brave me. and i'm not that free. nor that prepared for exam. aikssss. slacked this few days!!!no.......aiks. and AS exam is no joke. its not very hard. but not easy to score. what about the practical testssss??scary!!!and if i want to survive A2. this is the time i dig myself a well first. or prepare myself an umbrella. something like that. haha.
ok. so many things to do. what to wear to the wedding dinner??haha. what to give??and have to find all people i need in my ceremony. asap. argh. so that i can go for my AS exam in peace..and the VIP's souvenior. and yat lei's picture. and my further maths??can't afford to abandon it for another month again.
argh. motivation!!!i've wasted 2 days of this week already. i know i'm able to do all of these if i get into the mode NOW. shit you, facebook, why am i always fb-ing nowadays??this is the critical moment already. either i'll wasted my effort for the whole year, or i'm able to hit all my aims in one shot. NOW is the critical moment, because if i start any later, it'll be too late to get back on track already. and i dare suggested to go for karaeoke this week in class today..oh my, i'm so outta my mind!! no more time!!time to focus!!
now only i begin to feel anxious. right after i received call from Esther that inti idol would like to perform for us. its an incredibly good news for me and but then only i start to picture the events for the carnival. THEN only i really realise there is soooo much to do. GREAT. smart me.
going for shopping now T.T
plssss let me survive this.pls oh pls oh plsssss....
good luck people. good luck MAS 1.
chaoz~
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